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i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. writing a paper (im supposed to be writing one right now) has never been this difficult. my mind is going a mile a minute and the other part of my brain, the processing part can't keep up. i'm just bloated with 10 million different emotions and ideas right now and i dont know which should come first. and to top it all of, my mouth is bleeding. don't ask.
i went to a kabbalah seminar yesterday. it was strange. i didnt understand a single concept but it left a taste in my mouth. i found myself feeling very different. it's hard to describe... you ever get the feeling that even if you're going through your routine you feel like something's off? i have this ominous feeling that i can't shake off. anyway, this morning i had to watch a documentary about different religions and how religion is the root of evil. it was compelling but not in the way that i should be compelled, i think.
i dont think that my faith in God is waning, i'm just kinda turned-off by people who only dare to scratch the surface of their faith. and their self-righteousness. and their arrogance. and their stubbornness. and their elitism...