All bow to the new queen of emo!
Wow. So I just read everybody's journal entries about Eric's party and am now thouroghly depressed. Thanks for taking pictures Stanko! Though I did almost start crying when I looked at them. Especially the ones of Eric with short hair.
I just can't process the fact that Eric's not going to be there when I get home. Realizing that was a very big part of the reason I started bawling at my own going away party. Maybe it's a good thing I missed the party, I don't do so well with goodbyes. I would probably be bawling all over the place and then Eric wouldn't know what to do so he'd offer me a glass of water and then play "Redneck Mother" which for some odd reason would just make me cry more and perpetuate the cycle of social awkwardness.
It seemed like the most kickass party of all time though, another reason I'm bummed. In case anyone didn't figure it out this summer, I really hate missing good parties! However, I am rather bitter that Christian and Chad showed up to Eric's party when they both bailed on mine. But since he's going away for 3 years compared to my 3 months I guess it's permissable. I like to think that everyone would show up for my party if I were leaving the country for 3 years.
Aw Christ, I still wanna cry. I've pretty much wanted to cry at least once every day for 2 weeks straight though. But this definitely makes the loneliness worse. I don't even know what's wrong with me. I love it here and I'm having a great time.. aside from random urges to cry. Aargh, if this is culture shock, isn't it supposed to go away after a few days? I really don't think it is culture shock though. I'm not angry or hating the NI culture like they say you do in culture shock. It's really not that incredibly different from home. I'm just down for no good reason. Ugh... this is the most emo I've been since my depressed adolescent years. Gross. Maybe it's just the rainy, melancholy Irish air getting to me... someone be sure to tell Chad and Eric (if he's still in the country, I've asked but no one's bothered to tell me when exactly he's leaving!). They'll enjoy the melancholy of my soul.
Oh, and someone tell Dylan he looks good!! The Wolverine look was starting to get really old and gross... he looks hot clean shaven and with a nice hair cut. Well, okay, maybe not hot, but at least cute.
I just can't process the fact that Eric's not going to be there when I get home. Realizing that was a very big part of the reason I started bawling at my own going away party. Maybe it's a good thing I missed the party, I don't do so well with goodbyes. I would probably be bawling all over the place and then Eric wouldn't know what to do so he'd offer me a glass of water and then play "Redneck Mother" which for some odd reason would just make me cry more and perpetuate the cycle of social awkwardness.
It seemed like the most kickass party of all time though, another reason I'm bummed. In case anyone didn't figure it out this summer, I really hate missing good parties! However, I am rather bitter that Christian and Chad showed up to Eric's party when they both bailed on mine. But since he's going away for 3 years compared to my 3 months I guess it's permissable. I like to think that everyone would show up for my party if I were leaving the country for 3 years.
Aw Christ, I still wanna cry. I've pretty much wanted to cry at least once every day for 2 weeks straight though. But this definitely makes the loneliness worse. I don't even know what's wrong with me. I love it here and I'm having a great time.. aside from random urges to cry. Aargh, if this is culture shock, isn't it supposed to go away after a few days? I really don't think it is culture shock though. I'm not angry or hating the NI culture like they say you do in culture shock. It's really not that incredibly different from home. I'm just down for no good reason. Ugh... this is the most emo I've been since my depressed adolescent years. Gross. Maybe it's just the rainy, melancholy Irish air getting to me... someone be sure to tell Chad and Eric (if he's still in the country, I've asked but no one's bothered to tell me when exactly he's leaving!). They'll enjoy the melancholy of my soul.
Oh, and someone tell Dylan he looks good!! The Wolverine look was starting to get really old and gross... he looks hot clean shaven and with a nice hair cut. Well, okay, maybe not hot, but at least cute.