weird
I slowly feel my self coming back again. But the person I was is no longer there anymore. I feel like I went 8 years to my past. The bitterness keeps welling up inside me. I find myself not giving a fuck about anything. I have kept myself surrounded by people to keep me feeling alive inside but it doesnt seem to work. When the people are gone the blackness takes back control. And you know what? I dont really mind it. Because at least there is life back in my soul.
All along this crazy experience I have found friends and lost friends. I even found that a friend of many many years has turned thier back on me. It didnt really hurt like I expected it too because I am already over it. I guess once your crushed there is not much more that can make you hurt. If someone does not want to be my friend I dont really give a shit!!!!!!!!!! There are many more people out there that throw their arms around me when I see them. I also found out through my brother that I am addicted to meth now HA HA HA!!!!!! Man the way people in murray talk I have this awesome fun filled life. So If you have heard that the stupid bitch lies! I am in no way addicted to meth or Id be about 100 pounds lighter by now. I am also not pregnant or dating someone! Which are 2 other lies that have come back to me and not sure of the source of those yet.
I am having fun though. I have met alot of new people that are really cool. I am on a midnight shift now so I sleep during daylight. Most of the people I hang with are on the same schedule. The night freaks of murray HA HA HA! And OMG *drool* One of them is HOT! That is the only plus I have now. I am not afraid to go up to this guy and tell him he is fine as hell. He also seemed to like my porn collection ;) he he he Unfortunatly he is married so I have to be a good girl. Friends works for me :D
Well I thought I would update instead of just putting up some lyrics that mean alot to me. I love you all!
*to someone who will never read this* no one alse needs to read!
I am the mess you chose as your best friend. The love we share is endless. I have so enjoyed having you back in my life. And I dont want to forget the moments we have shared lately. Of course it is like so many moments we have shared in the past but I have missed it more then anything in the world. I feel most alive when I am sitting with you on the floor singing our songs. Even tho you will never read this I want you to know I love you unconditionally and always will. I know you would take a bullet for me and I would love for you to know I would do the same! I love you and thank you for reminding me I do have life inside me. Even if you had to cut me to show it ;)
All along this crazy experience I have found friends and lost friends. I even found that a friend of many many years has turned thier back on me. It didnt really hurt like I expected it too because I am already over it. I guess once your crushed there is not much more that can make you hurt. If someone does not want to be my friend I dont really give a shit!!!!!!!!!! There are many more people out there that throw their arms around me when I see them. I also found out through my brother that I am addicted to meth now HA HA HA!!!!!! Man the way people in murray talk I have this awesome fun filled life. So If you have heard that the stupid bitch lies! I am in no way addicted to meth or Id be about 100 pounds lighter by now. I am also not pregnant or dating someone! Which are 2 other lies that have come back to me and not sure of the source of those yet.
I am having fun though. I have met alot of new people that are really cool. I am on a midnight shift now so I sleep during daylight. Most of the people I hang with are on the same schedule. The night freaks of murray HA HA HA! And OMG *drool* One of them is HOT! That is the only plus I have now. I am not afraid to go up to this guy and tell him he is fine as hell. He also seemed to like my porn collection ;) he he he Unfortunatly he is married so I have to be a good girl. Friends works for me :D
Well I thought I would update instead of just putting up some lyrics that mean alot to me. I love you all!
*to someone who will never read this* no one alse needs to read!
I am the mess you chose as your best friend. The love we share is endless. I have so enjoyed having you back in my life. And I dont want to forget the moments we have shared lately. Of course it is like so many moments we have shared in the past but I have missed it more then anything in the world. I feel most alive when I am sitting with you on the floor singing our songs. Even tho you will never read this I want you to know I love you unconditionally and always will. I know you would take a bullet for me and I would love for you to know I would do the same! I love you and thank you for reminding me I do have life inside me. Even if you had to cut me to show it ;)