lonely
So.. it has seemingly been forever since I have updated this. Since I have so much has happened. I have had one crazy summer.. dealt with so much, but most difficult was the loss of my Grandma. She died on June 3, at 11 am. A big part of me died then too. I have been so out of it for months. I am kinda lost with myself. I dont really like to do anything because it all makes me sad. I am sitting here at school tonight and everyone has gone home for semester break. Its a lonely place to be. And my roomate went home, but that was ok because I needed alone time. Only I am stranded because my battery died the other day and my dad hasnt come to fix it.. so it would be nice if she were here to help transport me. But back to being alone, I watched an old family movie of my grandma and her family like my dad when he was young and so on and it made me cry. i miss her so much but nobody understands. everyone thinks taht i avoid them and choose mandy over them or just sit here and have fun but the truth is all i do is think about her. i cry myself to sleep and pray taht life will be shorter so that I can see her again. I just miss her so much its crazy. but i will quit for now.. leave some if u will.
hope all is well with everyone.
hope all is well with everyone.