Today
Well, today was not fun at all. I had been planning to both do better in global studies and to say hi to the girl I like today. I packed lunch and went off to school feeling optimistic. Took a test in bio, felt pretty good about it... and I got called down to the guidance office to talk about global studies. Okay, whatever. This means I won't be able to see the girl before 2nd period. I'll live. Go to global studies, class goes okay.. though I felt really stupid 'cause we were trying to identify African countries and I didn't know anything. :/ I feel better about it now, but I wasn't having much fun.
Then, on the way to iblock, which I hate anyway, I don't see her, and I'm feeling disappointed. I get to say hi to a friend.. iblock goes by and I'm kinda bored. Going to third period I *still* don't see the girl, and I'm starting to wonder if she's absent. Art goes okay- people liked the drawings I shared.. though I was feeling lousy. One kid was talking about a guy who had asked her out, and I was feeling jealous. :/
On the way to lunch, I'm feeling depressed because I'm wondering where I'm supposed to sit if the girl wasn't there. Then- she walks right past me in the other direction. I curse internally but keep going, because I know it would be weird if I just started following her. So I was feeling really pissed off- I had worked myself up to going over and asking to sit, and I wouldn't be able to. Nobody I knew was even in the cafeteria- maybe there was a test- so I was miserable and didn't stay in the cafeteria for lunch.
I mean, I'm looking forward to the concert tomorrow. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. But today wasn't fun. I feel so freaking worried about tomorrow.... I think I said that yesterday. I keep feeling tingly all over... gah, if *I'm* feeling nervous, I wonder what it's like for the people who are actually performing, you know? :P *sigh* I hope I get to give William his picture...
I think I'm starting to ramble, so I'll see you guys later.
Then, on the way to iblock, which I hate anyway, I don't see her, and I'm feeling disappointed. I get to say hi to a friend.. iblock goes by and I'm kinda bored. Going to third period I *still* don't see the girl, and I'm starting to wonder if she's absent. Art goes okay- people liked the drawings I shared.. though I was feeling lousy. One kid was talking about a guy who had asked her out, and I was feeling jealous. :/
On the way to lunch, I'm feeling depressed because I'm wondering where I'm supposed to sit if the girl wasn't there. Then- she walks right past me in the other direction. I curse internally but keep going, because I know it would be weird if I just started following her. So I was feeling really pissed off- I had worked myself up to going over and asking to sit, and I wouldn't be able to. Nobody I knew was even in the cafeteria- maybe there was a test- so I was miserable and didn't stay in the cafeteria for lunch.
I mean, I'm looking forward to the concert tomorrow. I'm hoping tomorrow will be better. But today wasn't fun. I feel so freaking worried about tomorrow.... I think I said that yesterday. I keep feeling tingly all over... gah, if *I'm* feeling nervous, I wonder what it's like for the people who are actually performing, you know? :P *sigh* I hope I get to give William his picture...
I think I'm starting to ramble, so I'll see you guys later.