Gah
(Letting you know right off the bat, I'm kinda blendy with William right now. Not sure if it'll show, but I think I'm talking weird...)
Okay, I'm really annoying myself. Every single day, I tell myself I am going to say hi to the girl I like, and every day, I fail. >.< I sit near her at lunch, and I can never do more than just stare. It bothers me, it really does. For the last two and a half weeks I've been telling myself every day to say hi. My goal was to say hi by the end of the week... two and a half weeks ago. Yeah. So that's annoying.
My novel's also giving me grief. I'm trying to plan it out, but since I don't get to see Matt much at school the weeks I'm at mom's house, I haven't been able to bounce ideas off him as much. I'm feeling stuck. Trying to do an outline and plan out characters in more detail. I'm getting frustrated trying to come up with names, and I'm worried about what if I can't think of the entire plot line? Or, what if I plan the whole thing, and it turns out too short? So I'm feeling a bit anxious.
Then there's the concert on Thursday. OMG I am so scared for that... :/ I mean, I cannot wait to see TAI again, and I want really badly to give the real William the picture I did... but I'm worrying about what if- I don't get close enough to give him the picture? what if he doesn't like it? how will the concert go? will I have fun? (sounds like a duh, but I'm worrying about before TAI, and if I'll be close enough to the front w/o being squished...) So, yeah. Worrying about a lot of stuff right now. Trying to settle down enough to do homework, but... no. I've been having the worst time falling asleep this last week, worrying about it, and I've been dreaming of William every night. I'm so excited, and so scared at the same time... >.<;;; Thank goodness I have therapy today. I need to rant.
AND I NEED MY GUITAR!!!! Hopefully I'll be getting it tonight so I can practice Rumored Nights and "calm the f* down" as Yusuke and William are putting it. ^_^;;; Well, gotta do my homework now... I'll see you guys later!
Okay, I'm really annoying myself. Every single day, I tell myself I am going to say hi to the girl I like, and every day, I fail. >.< I sit near her at lunch, and I can never do more than just stare. It bothers me, it really does. For the last two and a half weeks I've been telling myself every day to say hi. My goal was to say hi by the end of the week... two and a half weeks ago. Yeah. So that's annoying.
My novel's also giving me grief. I'm trying to plan it out, but since I don't get to see Matt much at school the weeks I'm at mom's house, I haven't been able to bounce ideas off him as much. I'm feeling stuck. Trying to do an outline and plan out characters in more detail. I'm getting frustrated trying to come up with names, and I'm worried about what if I can't think of the entire plot line? Or, what if I plan the whole thing, and it turns out too short? So I'm feeling a bit anxious.
Then there's the concert on Thursday. OMG I am so scared for that... :/ I mean, I cannot wait to see TAI again, and I want really badly to give the real William the picture I did... but I'm worrying about what if- I don't get close enough to give him the picture? what if he doesn't like it? how will the concert go? will I have fun? (sounds like a duh, but I'm worrying about before TAI, and if I'll be close enough to the front w/o being squished...) So, yeah. Worrying about a lot of stuff right now. Trying to settle down enough to do homework, but... no. I've been having the worst time falling asleep this last week, worrying about it, and I've been dreaming of William every night. I'm so excited, and so scared at the same time... >.<;;; Thank goodness I have therapy today. I need to rant.
AND I NEED MY GUITAR!!!! Hopefully I'll be getting it tonight so I can practice Rumored Nights and "calm the f* down" as Yusuke and William are putting it. ^_^;;; Well, gotta do my homework now... I'll see you guys later!