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So Andrew popped the big question yesterday......no not, will you marry me, but rather would you like to discuss a relationship?? He first started it out as he wanted to discuss in two weeks when he returns from the field but then said it would be great if we wanted to discuss it now. I told him in two weeks..... I think I have turned into a guy, because isn't it usually the girl that request these things?? I really like our relationship that we have going now, why push it? I suppose I'll have to have an answer in two weeks but for these two weeks I'm going to try going out on dates and see how I manage without him. He matches me so well and he met my family this weekend and they all got along really well, but I guess I'm sort of scared of realtionships. In the past it did too much damage for my emotional and mental health. I'm more productive single, and practice flute a lot more. I don't want to lose him, but we'll see in two weeks. I am very worried about us being in a relationship and him being deployed to Afghanistan. Since he is an officer he should be a good bit safer but after all the recent articles I have read it still worries me. I could go on and on about our relationship now since we have been spending a good bit of time together but it would be trivial.
On another note, I feel like I'm turning in to nothing. All I do is sleep, eat, and hang around my house. I'm turning in to a hermit! I can't get the energy nor motivation to get anything done anymore and I can't stay focused for long. It's driving me nuts!! I need a job also!! I have so much I want to do but I'm not accomplishing it, I need a steady routine, such as work or school. I did get my first wedding gig!!! I'm really nervous but excited, because I really need it. The only reason I got it though was because Amanda W. isn't able to make it. I'm really upset that she is not returning and the whole ordeal with her parents is ridiculous. Jason is really hurt.
Well I got to run, the stinkin Atmos people are here, and if they turn off my gas I'm raising hell...those people are so stupid and have been a pain in my side. They need to get their act together in the offices!
On another note, I feel like I'm turning in to nothing. All I do is sleep, eat, and hang around my house. I'm turning in to a hermit! I can't get the energy nor motivation to get anything done anymore and I can't stay focused for long. It's driving me nuts!! I need a job also!! I have so much I want to do but I'm not accomplishing it, I need a steady routine, such as work or school. I did get my first wedding gig!!! I'm really nervous but excited, because I really need it. The only reason I got it though was because Amanda W. isn't able to make it. I'm really upset that she is not returning and the whole ordeal with her parents is ridiculous. Jason is really hurt.
Well I got to run, the stinkin Atmos people are here, and if they turn off my gas I'm raising hell...those people are so stupid and have been a pain in my side. They need to get their act together in the offices!