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[bballjersey00]

I hate my life!!! I swear the harder I try the the more I fail. I worked my ass off on this composition project for theory, way before most people started, and I was extremely proud of it. I even had two knowledgeable students listen to it and look at it....and I failed. Seriously I fulfilled the requirements, so I don't know how the hell she can take off for items that were not originally being graded for!?!!??! I know I'm not the strongest student in the class but the teacher is a HORRIBLE teacher. She doesn't teach the material well and expects you to just get it. Now, I know that most people disagree with me and think she's a wonderful teacher but take away the "treats" and the favortism I bet they would feel the same way. I feel like a lot of her teaching is for show. I've tried to like her as a teacher but I can not. I have no problem with her as a person but I think she has a lot of room for improvement. I'm at the point where I really want to quit. Often I feel like many people in the music department can not relate to the outside world. Sure, maybe a few hundred maybe thousands of people understand serialism and atonal music, but in reality how is it practical?!! How are you making a contribution to society by understand it? Some stuff seems really pointless...and I'm sick of it! I guess I really don't fit in to the music person sterotype, there is sooo much more out there. I like sports, having a good time with friends (even if it is ignorant fun, and just plain stupid), working in the yards with my mom, traveling, photography, fashion, hiking/camping, working out, and so much more. I feel like people are sometimes to absorbed in the music thing, I mean seriously if you can't hold a conversation with a person outside of the music building you are a waste to society. I'm soooo annoyed with all this! In a way the biology major is looking more and more desirable. Idk, maybe tomorrow I will be enthusiastic again for music but right now I'm tired of wasting my life just studying and practicing, I'm not living life and if I were to die today I believe I have missed too much good.

P.S. Ironic how this song
came on and matches everything
I want to say... that's the reason
for music