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I dont even know where to start, today was a fucking day of revelations if i ever had one. most of it started when i found out all of a sudden my friends are going to see a free movie i had only heard small details of it, thats cool, dont mention it to me. then when i call someone who had planned to come over and help me move, he mentions that hes going, and i find out that i cant go, cuz guess who said that they would bring in this friend for paper work, not to mention start my manager training. so here we go, sacrificing fun time for work. then i get to work, oh shit, apparently it was going to be known that i wouldnt be needed the two hours earlier i was asked to come in, so that was a waste. so my sister got off right after i was put on break so i talked to her for awhile and found out that it was elaboratley thought out how me and miller would have nothing to do, but whoever would go on break would get food. ok great, so i wrote diesel a note indicating that i did sacrifice a night with my friends to come in here and train, when i wasnt needed, but that i didnt mind just wanted to remind him of the initiative im taking and that i want to be a manager. so anyway, i also talked to jo about the shit that was going. here are my revelations (nothing to do with above)
1.) I can trust nobody at all
-this excludes my sister, however, there is a difference between having a sibling u can trust and a friend u can trust
-Ive known this for quite a while, but have continually gone into denial about it
2.) I am putting work infront of social life
- decided instead of a movie that it was more important to go to UNscheduled manager training. This will result in work coming over everything else my entire life in the form of either
a. neglecting my family for work
b. not being able to have a family because of all the time i spend working (looking like the more feasable possiblility considering my current issues)
3.) People at work are awesome
- i never have to deal with the out of work bullshit at work. mainly because im around people that grasp concepts that people who dont work cant. the reason i get so pissed at points is because im trying to accomplish leading a drumline and managing a restaurant all before the age of 18, and ive got schmucks without the fucking initiative to pick up a spot marker. its fucking ridiculous.
4.) People need to shut the fuck up about there problems
- you probably think that this is a double standard, however, i am typing this into an online journal, and if you are reading it, you are doing it on your own time by your own choice. im not wasting your time by being a cocky little ass while your trying to do your job. if u have a problem, talk to me later, dont fucking bullshit me when ive got other people to worry about
5.) im a bitter old man
- its true. here i am sitting here bitching into a fucking keyboard. im sick of everything right now, im so overwhelmed i cant even shit. my emotions are running on end (ive liked about 40 different girls in the past two months) I realize that because of this craziness i am unable to have true feelings about anyone, but i refuse to surround myself with people who cannot understand anything i could possibly be going through at the moment. hence the fact that i am having such a hard time finding people i can talk to. i understand that im not the busiest person on earth, but usually am in the room. the least people could do is not even understand it, just sympathize. but no, people are too busy fronting and dealing with their bullshit and not worrying about whatever is being done for them. news flash to any drumline members: IM NOT IN CHARGE SO I CAN WRITE IT ON MY FUCKING COLLEGE APPLICATION. i am here because i was told that things would go to shit without me, and because stupid me actually cared. how dare any of you come up to me and tell me that im wrong, FUCK YOU. im here for the job that i applied for, that u were to chicken shit to do anything about, so i could care less. all you drumline people who resent what im doing for YOU, can go fuck themselves, because you have no idea what the hell is going on in my life right now, and that im fucking bending over backwards to help YOU achieve greatness.
This is what happens when you try and balance an AP schedule, beyand, and a part time job. my name is dave, and i have issues at the moment.
Thats a great fucking opening chapter for my story, huh?
1.) I can trust nobody at all
-this excludes my sister, however, there is a difference between having a sibling u can trust and a friend u can trust
-Ive known this for quite a while, but have continually gone into denial about it
2.) I am putting work infront of social life
- decided instead of a movie that it was more important to go to UNscheduled manager training. This will result in work coming over everything else my entire life in the form of either
a. neglecting my family for work
b. not being able to have a family because of all the time i spend working (looking like the more feasable possiblility considering my current issues)
3.) People at work are awesome
- i never have to deal with the out of work bullshit at work. mainly because im around people that grasp concepts that people who dont work cant. the reason i get so pissed at points is because im trying to accomplish leading a drumline and managing a restaurant all before the age of 18, and ive got schmucks without the fucking initiative to pick up a spot marker. its fucking ridiculous.
4.) People need to shut the fuck up about there problems
- you probably think that this is a double standard, however, i am typing this into an online journal, and if you are reading it, you are doing it on your own time by your own choice. im not wasting your time by being a cocky little ass while your trying to do your job. if u have a problem, talk to me later, dont fucking bullshit me when ive got other people to worry about
5.) im a bitter old man
- its true. here i am sitting here bitching into a fucking keyboard. im sick of everything right now, im so overwhelmed i cant even shit. my emotions are running on end (ive liked about 40 different girls in the past two months) I realize that because of this craziness i am unable to have true feelings about anyone, but i refuse to surround myself with people who cannot understand anything i could possibly be going through at the moment. hence the fact that i am having such a hard time finding people i can talk to. i understand that im not the busiest person on earth, but usually am in the room. the least people could do is not even understand it, just sympathize. but no, people are too busy fronting and dealing with their bullshit and not worrying about whatever is being done for them. news flash to any drumline members: IM NOT IN CHARGE SO I CAN WRITE IT ON MY FUCKING COLLEGE APPLICATION. i am here because i was told that things would go to shit without me, and because stupid me actually cared. how dare any of you come up to me and tell me that im wrong, FUCK YOU. im here for the job that i applied for, that u were to chicken shit to do anything about, so i could care less. all you drumline people who resent what im doing for YOU, can go fuck themselves, because you have no idea what the hell is going on in my life right now, and that im fucking bending over backwards to help YOU achieve greatness.
This is what happens when you try and balance an AP schedule, beyand, and a part time job. my name is dave, and i have issues at the moment.
Thats a great fucking opening chapter for my story, huh?