let my feelings out, but not nearly all of them
The more I sit here and think about it, the more it makes me reflect on the future..
Honestly after being in a relationship for 2 years & basically seeing each other everyday, one would think it would be easier to let them go to college, [ u know …u figure it as a time away, a time to just hang out with ur friends and just have some time to urself and explore everything about urself that makes u who u are.]…
...I thought wrong...
Each day gets harder, & every time I see him makes it worse.
I’m not ready. But I have to be. I got nine days left w/ someone that has impacted my life profoundly & has been my ultimate best friend for about 3 years. I have to say goodbye to someone I love.I have to say bye to someone that has been there for me through anything& everything and has always made me smile, he's turned the worst days of my life into the best and has gotten me through everything, whether it was a fight with a friend or family member, a lose of an important game or even just something that hurt me, hes made me see good in every bad…& he’s changed me so much and has made me stronger & in nine days 3 1/2 hours away will be our distance compared to 15 minutes.
There is so much more to say, but I cant find the words. I cry thinking about it, as lame as that sounds….but im so attached.
But were going to make it work & I will see him…. Just not nearly as much.
& for that, I will miss him deeply
Its sad. College. Who were to think we would all have to say goodbye to each other so quickly?.
It feels as if so much is left to be said….but time is cutting it short.
Saying goodbye to my brother, Ryan Lass, is when it hit me. 5 hours away compared to 3 minutes. Honestly?...reality sucks. I will miss him but I intend on seeing him and talking to him even if it is at 1:00am & I have to wake up from being dead asleep {like usual}
Other than the “goodbyes” & the “ill miss you’s” & the “I love you’s & will call u all the time”….
Life isn’t to shabby, when u look at it in a positive way...
I will be hanging out with the ones staying @ home a lot. Which is what I think I need. I will most def be hanging out with Nikki and Sarah!! And of course Chris and PC & all the others…
It will be fun.
Alstott- I’m giving u a year at max. cuz come next year I expect to be roommates with you!. & im hoping to be {we need to figure that all out]… and also, we need to hang out!!! I HEART YOU HARDCORE, please don’t ever forget that.
I got a job at American Eagle.. yay!!
Well that’s it, its my daddy’s birthday & im spending time with him
I love u all! comment if u want.