So, just a brief update
So, I got into grad school. I didn't get the assistantship though, so I gotta take out some loans. Which won't be fun, lemme tell ya. But I'll be all over the GA site in the months to come, and hopefully I can get one for next semester.
Last week Mike headed down to Texas A&M. It seems pretty obvious to most people familiar with the situation that they're probably not going to last too much longer as a couple. When exactly is uncertain, but probably within the next 6 months or so. What's really bugging the crap out of me though is that every is assuming that I'm going to try to make a move on Megan. That's not going to be the case at all, but no one seems to believe me. I'm not playing that game where there's another guy in the background again. It never pays off, and it's not worth wasting my time on. Even if Mike and Megan break up, they were together for 5 years. That's a lot of time to just suddenly break up with someone and start dating someone else. And even still, there's still the specter of the ex. 5 years is a long time. And I don't even really want to get into a relationship with Megan. Still, no one seems to believe me. I'm not sure Megan's making my case easier, seeing as the last time we hung out at her place she was wearing makeup. To put this in perspective, the last time I saw Megan wearing makeup was last Halloween. Yeah.....
On top of that, there's something else that's been bugging me lately. Usually on Friday's we've been hanging out at Megan's place. Nothing really crazy, just your standard social gathering with some not so standard dinners. They've been fun, and I enjoy hanging out but there's something that bothers me. Everyone there with the exception of myself is in a relationship. Which normally isn't too bad but at some point in time everyone decides to start getting snuggly. Megan's still in her possibly in denial stage about being in a relationship, and then everyone else gets close. And it leaves me the odd man out, and I hate that. Because it reminds me that I'm still single. And it's bad enough that I'm still single, but that I can't do a damn thing about it. It's frustrating, and I really don't know what to do about it. I enjoy hanging out with everyone, but the uncomfortableness from everyone getting together is getting to the point where I almost don't want to go. I'm not totally sure if that's normal or not, but it's how I feel. I don't think it will change any time soon either, I'll have to figure something out.
Last week Mike headed down to Texas A&M. It seems pretty obvious to most people familiar with the situation that they're probably not going to last too much longer as a couple. When exactly is uncertain, but probably within the next 6 months or so. What's really bugging the crap out of me though is that every is assuming that I'm going to try to make a move on Megan. That's not going to be the case at all, but no one seems to believe me. I'm not playing that game where there's another guy in the background again. It never pays off, and it's not worth wasting my time on. Even if Mike and Megan break up, they were together for 5 years. That's a lot of time to just suddenly break up with someone and start dating someone else. And even still, there's still the specter of the ex. 5 years is a long time. And I don't even really want to get into a relationship with Megan. Still, no one seems to believe me. I'm not sure Megan's making my case easier, seeing as the last time we hung out at her place she was wearing makeup. To put this in perspective, the last time I saw Megan wearing makeup was last Halloween. Yeah.....
On top of that, there's something else that's been bugging me lately. Usually on Friday's we've been hanging out at Megan's place. Nothing really crazy, just your standard social gathering with some not so standard dinners. They've been fun, and I enjoy hanging out but there's something that bothers me. Everyone there with the exception of myself is in a relationship. Which normally isn't too bad but at some point in time everyone decides to start getting snuggly. Megan's still in her possibly in denial stage about being in a relationship, and then everyone else gets close. And it leaves me the odd man out, and I hate that. Because it reminds me that I'm still single. And it's bad enough that I'm still single, but that I can't do a damn thing about it. It's frustrating, and I really don't know what to do about it. I enjoy hanging out with everyone, but the uncomfortableness from everyone getting together is getting to the point where I almost don't want to go. I'm not totally sure if that's normal or not, but it's how I feel. I don't think it will change any time soon either, I'll have to figure something out.