So, I’m trying to get back into the swing of writing again and am having some issues getting into it because every sentence I write looks cheesy/stupid/blah/insert-your-own-word-for-my-neuroses-here. My normal solution to this angst is 1) re-reading fic from other people that is awesome and therefore inspiring or 2) watching lots of LOST to get the
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This is pretty much how I felt too! I was like, eh, at least Jack/Juliet will mean that the damn triangle is over and then they'll stop all the Jack/Kate/Sawyer drama. But then the kisses were SO BAD AND AWKWARD and I couldn't deal with that. (Although, I did think they were kind of sweet in "The End." Probably because they didn't have to kiss or pretend to be attracted to each other.)
Okay, commentary time!
This passage is basically an illustration of my complete and utter inability to write angst-free fluff featuring these two. Poor Sawyer’s just completely in love with Juliet, but he’s got no real idea how to handle a lot of their relationship. He doesn’t know what to say to her or how to say it, which to me makes sense because he’s never really been in an honest relationship before. So there’s always this part of him that second guesses his impulses-should he tell her these things he loves about her, or will she just think it sounds like he’s trying too hard, like he’s trying to con her-and the end result is that Juliet’s not confident in how he feels about her. I like using Sawyer’s POV for this story because s5 focused much more on Juliet’s feelings and insecurities. And while lot of stuff in s6 made up for that-particularly in “What Kate Does” with the ring-for most of s5, Sawyer’s feelings aren’t really shown clearly. They're always shown through the veil of Juliet's doubts.
So I’m kind of working with that here, showing that Sawyer DOES love Juliet that much-enough that he only wants to be with her, enough that he legitimately can’t believe how much he cares about her-but that he’s not very good at expressing that. And, instead of talking about it, Sawyer concentrates on the feel of it, which to him is just as important.
In The Dharma Years, I thought it was really key to have this kind of paradox in their relationship where they were closer to each other than they’d ever really been to anyone, but that there were just a lot of things that they avoided talking about altogether. And that comes to a head later in the chapter with their confrontation over the Hydra and Juliet tasering him and her still having this huge amount of insecurity over his relationship with Kate (and, I mean, she pretty much watched the cage sex happen; that’s got to be a tough thing to have in her mind), but even then they don’t actually talk all that much about it. They yell at each other and then it’s over. Except for all the ways it’s not.
And now they’re just hanging out getting drunk on the porch, both of them trying not to be the one who messes up their relationship by actually having a discussion about their issues. Which, of course, is the thing that’s ACTUALLY going to fuck up their relationship once the O6 return.
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