Responsible?
This word..its something that gets passed around a lot when you are growing up. From that first moment you say that you want that small pet..dog or what have you. To the day that you want a car or the house to yourself while your parents are out. We learn early on that it means taking what comes from a choice or action you made. But the question is..what if you did it..and now you see the outcome..and your not sure its what you want.
I have lived my life with the simple rule..the past is behind you..if you look back..you will trip and fall and lose your way. That you may miss something great cause you were so busy looking back. Yet here I am right now..faced with something I didn't think I would have to face. The wondering if what I've done is right..am I responsible for it all? I often thought I was..then others tell me I'm not..then I think hard on it..and I'm faced with the simple fact that I am. I get confused and think about what could have been or what should be.
So the true question is..am I responsible for all the ill that came in my life..down to the very first true chance I got to make my own choices. I have to say yes and no..you can't be responsible for everything that goes on in the world. But you can be for the little things in life..like will I have some ceral? But I doubt you will flash back to that moment when your sitting in a hostage situation hungry. Thinking if only you ate that bowl of ceral..this might not have happen. What it boils down too in trust..is your sense of responsiblity. When you look at yourself in the mirror..or around where you live. Can you point out the things your responsible for? Can you look to that person your with..and say I'm with you cause of the actions I made..for the devotion I gave..and for the love that I have.
To your things that you own..and say I got this cause of that..we live in a time of chaos..not knowing what each moment will bring..or each day will give. In this time and in this place..I can only look at my own to hands..and think..today..today is different. If you ask why..then just look at your own to hands..and ask yourself..am I willing to take responsiblity for what I can do with these? Will today be different?
I have lived my life with the simple rule..the past is behind you..if you look back..you will trip and fall and lose your way. That you may miss something great cause you were so busy looking back. Yet here I am right now..faced with something I didn't think I would have to face. The wondering if what I've done is right..am I responsible for it all? I often thought I was..then others tell me I'm not..then I think hard on it..and I'm faced with the simple fact that I am. I get confused and think about what could have been or what should be.
So the true question is..am I responsible for all the ill that came in my life..down to the very first true chance I got to make my own choices. I have to say yes and no..you can't be responsible for everything that goes on in the world. But you can be for the little things in life..like will I have some ceral? But I doubt you will flash back to that moment when your sitting in a hostage situation hungry. Thinking if only you ate that bowl of ceral..this might not have happen. What it boils down too in trust..is your sense of responsiblity. When you look at yourself in the mirror..or around where you live. Can you point out the things your responsible for? Can you look to that person your with..and say I'm with you cause of the actions I made..for the devotion I gave..and for the love that I have.
To your things that you own..and say I got this cause of that..we live in a time of chaos..not knowing what each moment will bring..or each day will give. In this time and in this place..I can only look at my own to hands..and think..today..today is different. If you ask why..then just look at your own to hands..and ask yourself..am I willing to take responsiblity for what I can do with these? Will today be different?