of course i love you and of course it's what's inside that matters
"...but i think the whole charade is ending"
so I wanted to come back all triumphant-like with a picture-heavy update on my fantastic Hawaiian adventure, but I've been putting it off, so here's an update of my life as of last night:
-my cat (since I was 4) is dead, and will not be there to prance up to my car meowing when I get home this afternoon.
-despite my recent unexpected boost in body confidence, I am apparantly too fat to be sexually appealing to my "un-boyfriend" anymore...I feel like a fool.
-the wounds on my legs that originated from wicked Waikiki sunburn are now being treated like chemical burns.
-after not seeing him for months, I have seen an old on-again-off-again (that I have always had inexplicable feelings for) 4 times since yesterday...I think he must live nearby.
-I never want to grow old.
I cannot stop crying. I hate what it feels like to be off medication, but I hate being dependent on it even more.
please please please don't let this be ruined for me.
I'm tired of being fat.
so I wanted to come back all triumphant-like with a picture-heavy update on my fantastic Hawaiian adventure, but I've been putting it off, so here's an update of my life as of last night:
-my cat (since I was 4) is dead, and will not be there to prance up to my car meowing when I get home this afternoon.
-despite my recent unexpected boost in body confidence, I am apparantly too fat to be sexually appealing to my "un-boyfriend" anymore...I feel like a fool.
-the wounds on my legs that originated from wicked Waikiki sunburn are now being treated like chemical burns.
-after not seeing him for months, I have seen an old on-again-off-again (that I have always had inexplicable feelings for) 4 times since yesterday...I think he must live nearby.
-I never want to grow old.
I cannot stop crying. I hate what it feels like to be off medication, but I hate being dependent on it even more.
please please please don't let this be ruined for me.
I'm tired of being fat.