I need advice
To anyone who reads this - even if you don't know me that well:
I like numbers. I like math and I find significance in numbers. I dislike odd numbers. I always have. The only odd number I like at all is 9, and I couldn't tell you why. When I think of a number I dislike, I get an almost anxiety about it. They simply feel wrong. I don't know how else to describe it. On the other hand, there are certain numbers I just like. They are comforting and almost exciting in a very pure kind of way. I also have a favorite and least favorite number. I disdain the number 7. I always will. They offend me. I love the number 6. No, not 666, just 6. It feels almost joyous when I get a phone number or a confirmation number that is mostly 6s. Like I won a special prize.
Ok, that's the first part of my weirdness.
I am also getting married. It was decided by parties involved that the wedding should be after Ryan graduates - which would be 2013. Now, 13 doesn't bother me because of it's negative stigma, but it is an odd number and sets me off considerably. I put that uneasiness aside because I thought it wasn't more important than our original reasoning. However, I realized that if we have it then, I will be 27 and Ryan will be 23 when we get married. This I cannot ignore. It really upsets me. I know it sounds like a small thing, but I think the small things are what matter most when it comes to big events. I talked to my mother and Ryan about moving the wedding to 2012. They weren't against it, but they think I'm being ridiculous. I'm trying to get an unbiased opinion. Despite what many people might think, I am not moving it up because of impatience. The thought of planning this in less than a year terrifies me, and I liked that it was a good ways away. I had more time to lose weight, more time to shop around, etc. This isn't more convenient. I just think that if something feels as wrong as those numbers do, you find a way to change it. In 2012, I would be 26. That would be amazing. And 12 is a multiple of 6! And Ryan would be 22, which is a double number and always a great thing.
Now that I've made you all think I'm insane - am I being ridiculous? I mean, partly I am and I know that, but this matters to me. I'm not sure if I should push for it or if I should just take the horrible numbers. Just the thought of 27 scares me. That's going to be a bad year. All my worst years were odds. 21? Don't get me started. Ugh.
Any thoughts?
I like numbers. I like math and I find significance in numbers. I dislike odd numbers. I always have. The only odd number I like at all is 9, and I couldn't tell you why. When I think of a number I dislike, I get an almost anxiety about it. They simply feel wrong. I don't know how else to describe it. On the other hand, there are certain numbers I just like. They are comforting and almost exciting in a very pure kind of way. I also have a favorite and least favorite number. I disdain the number 7. I always will. They offend me. I love the number 6. No, not 666, just 6. It feels almost joyous when I get a phone number or a confirmation number that is mostly 6s. Like I won a special prize.
Ok, that's the first part of my weirdness.
I am also getting married. It was decided by parties involved that the wedding should be after Ryan graduates - which would be 2013. Now, 13 doesn't bother me because of it's negative stigma, but it is an odd number and sets me off considerably. I put that uneasiness aside because I thought it wasn't more important than our original reasoning. However, I realized that if we have it then, I will be 27 and Ryan will be 23 when we get married. This I cannot ignore. It really upsets me. I know it sounds like a small thing, but I think the small things are what matter most when it comes to big events. I talked to my mother and Ryan about moving the wedding to 2012. They weren't against it, but they think I'm being ridiculous. I'm trying to get an unbiased opinion. Despite what many people might think, I am not moving it up because of impatience. The thought of planning this in less than a year terrifies me, and I liked that it was a good ways away. I had more time to lose weight, more time to shop around, etc. This isn't more convenient. I just think that if something feels as wrong as those numbers do, you find a way to change it. In 2012, I would be 26. That would be amazing. And 12 is a multiple of 6! And Ryan would be 22, which is a double number and always a great thing.
Now that I've made you all think I'm insane - am I being ridiculous? I mean, partly I am and I know that, but this matters to me. I'm not sure if I should push for it or if I should just take the horrible numbers. Just the thought of 27 scares me. That's going to be a bad year. All my worst years were odds. 21? Don't get me started. Ugh.
Any thoughts?