pay no attention, i am just writing
I have said everything that needs to be said, I have done everything that in my power that can be done. And yet I still feel invisible. I know I am not invisible, but it still feels like I am. Maybe not invisible in the physical sense but in an emotional way. My thoughts and feelings are none existent. If it were only that simple, then maybe, just maybe I can feel happy again. Until that day, I guess I just don't know what I will do. Well, I actually do know what I need to continue to do. It is what my life has always been about. I will have to continue to act, to wear a mask to hide my true thoughts and emotions. And I hate hiding it, so many times I have longed to just shout to the world. To let all with ears know how I feel, but I can't. I must remain hidden. "with bloody fists, i try to mend a heart that slowly breaks in two"