cinder and smoke.
i... just. feel totally helpless.
i try so hard to help, to crutch- and hit a wall every time.
it's so hard when you care so much about someone.
tonight i stayed home, cuddled under blankets, watching a movie, trying to occupy my mind.
but it always fucking wins.
in other news, school is completely suffocating.
midterms are finally over, now i have 30 pages of papers to write.
i hate even talking about it, but everyone always asks, "how's school going?" or "why haven't i seen you in forever?"
maybe because all i do is talk about it until the very last minute. yeah.
next weekend i'm going to lethbridge, alberta, for my grandma's 75th birthday. i want to see her, and my sister. the rest will be overwhelming.
my extended family is mormon.
yeah.
i don't know man.
i really want a dog.
i try so hard to help, to crutch- and hit a wall every time.
it's so hard when you care so much about someone.
tonight i stayed home, cuddled under blankets, watching a movie, trying to occupy my mind.
but it always fucking wins.
in other news, school is completely suffocating.
midterms are finally over, now i have 30 pages of papers to write.
i hate even talking about it, but everyone always asks, "how's school going?" or "why haven't i seen you in forever?"
maybe because all i do is talk about it until the very last minute. yeah.
next weekend i'm going to lethbridge, alberta, for my grandma's 75th birthday. i want to see her, and my sister. the rest will be overwhelming.
my extended family is mormon.
yeah.
i don't know man.
i really want a dog.