PANIC!!!!!!!!!
So I have been asked what it feels like to have a panic attack before. I don't know if it can be put into words but I'll try here just once. Here it goes....::takes a deep breath::
Imaginethateverythingyouevercaredforsuddenlydissappearedorbecamepointlessandallyoucandoisnothingbecauseyouareuselessandithurts
andithurtssobadthatyoudon'tevenhavethestrengthtocry.youhavenostrengthatall.youarenothing.insignificant.adropofwaterintheocean.
agrainofsandonthebeach.noonewillmissyouwhenyouaregonesowhydon'tyoujustgo.nothingiskeepingyouhere.theworldwillgoonewithoutyou.
youmaybemissedbutnotmuch.theyhateyoucan'tyouseeitinthiereyes.thierfalsesmiles.theylaughjustalittletooloud.can'tyouhearit?theyarelaughing
atyou.notwithyou.justdiediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediedie.youcannotbelovedbecauseyouarenotloveable.itisthatsimple.
youhavenohopeofhappiness.everythingyoulovecanandwillbetakenawayfrom.dangledjustoutofreach.lifeistorture.correctionyourlifeistorture.
showthemwhosboss.ifyoucan'tcontrolyourlife.controlyourdeath.doitdoitdoit!!
and that's pretty much what a panic attack is like.
Imaginethateverythingyouevercaredforsuddenlydissappearedorbecamepointlessandallyoucandoisnothingbecauseyouareuselessandithurts
andithurtssobadthatyoudon'tevenhavethestrengthtocry.youhavenostrengthatall.youarenothing.insignificant.adropofwaterintheocean.
agrainofsandonthebeach.noonewillmissyouwhenyouaregonesowhydon'tyoujustgo.nothingiskeepingyouhere.theworldwillgoonewithoutyou.
youmaybemissedbutnotmuch.theyhateyoucan'tyouseeitinthiereyes.thierfalsesmiles.theylaughjustalittletooloud.can'tyouhearit?theyarelaughing
atyou.notwithyou.justdiediediediediediediediediediediediediediediediedie.youcannotbelovedbecauseyouarenotloveable.itisthatsimple.
youhavenohopeofhappiness.everythingyoulovecanandwillbetakenawayfrom.dangledjustoutofreach.lifeistorture.correctionyourlifeistorture.
showthemwhosboss.ifyoucan'tcontrolyourlife.controlyourdeath.doitdoitdoit!!
and that's pretty much what a panic attack is like.