Good Riddance
Overall, year 40 for me kinda sucked and I’m glad it’s going to be over shortly. Even though I haven’t lost my job, car, house, a loved one or a limb it’s still been pretty miserable. It started with my own dad screwing up my plans for a big party and just never really seemed to recover. I found that at 40, at least for me, one tends to look back on the past as it’s considered a milestone. I did and really did not like what I saw. I realized that certain aspects of my life have gone unfulfilled and I have basically no hope that will change. My life, certainly, has not gone the way I had hoped and there seems to be no changing that fact.
How does one cope with it? How do you rationalize things like that? How do you just sit by quietly when certain parts of the world just pass you by? Far too often results are the only thing that matters. In baseball, a sloppy win is still a win. You can have the best intentions ever but if you just can’t seem to achieve anything then sadly that’s the only way you are judged, or judge yourself.
Overall, the past 12 months have been a MAJOR disappointment for me and I can just wish the changing of a new age for me will be different. Sadly, I don’t really hold out much hope. I can make use of “band aids” for now but I need real change to happen soon.
How does one cope with it? How do you rationalize things like that? How do you just sit by quietly when certain parts of the world just pass you by? Far too often results are the only thing that matters. In baseball, a sloppy win is still a win. You can have the best intentions ever but if you just can’t seem to achieve anything then sadly that’s the only way you are judged, or judge yourself.
Overall, the past 12 months have been a MAJOR disappointment for me and I can just wish the changing of a new age for me will be different. Sadly, I don’t really hold out much hope. I can make use of “band aids” for now but I need real change to happen soon.