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[barr00m_hero]

leigh allen white, you did yourself a great disservice by reading that.

what the hell is my problem? i can't live for the present moment. only in the past, dammit. it is really pissing me off. it's seriously stressing me out right now, the fact that i can't let these things go. perphaps a little Chopin + some reflection will help me out.

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[ripped_undies]

i agree with what you wrote there bud, i've been going thru i guess you could say the same thing you are going thru. but mine is kinda retarted becuase its on and off and i guess a tad different. i want to let go of this one thing that i know isnt mine to hold on to anymore but i cant, i cant and i frustrated myself to no end. i think that maybe if i hold on to this i can fix it but deep down inside..i cant, like you said whats done is done. dont get me wrong i've tried fixing, i've tried understanding "it" but i cant. in a way i know that i cant honsetly say that i will ever let go of that but i cant at least try to concentrate on now because i know that i cant let it go....so i guess in the past three days i've had little sleep thinking and thinking, whats wrong with me? why do i have to think about this now? why now? but the best i came up with was..to just hold on to it and hope that one day i'll grow up and be able to look at it as a happy cherished memory that helped me grow, theres nothing wrong with you becuase well evryone has one thing or another that sets them apart from evryone else i think im selfish and cruel which to an extent i am but not entirely, you know how i am you see me and you see cesar, i see you and i see leigh nothign more, if we all were good would we really be living becuase the point of living is to better one selves right? to become a better person, to learn from our younger days...now...to make mistakes and learn and cry and laugh lol my words are for you but when i start to think about it, they're for me too and i thank you. i like you, you and your vanity, petty filled hiprocrisy. flawed and imperfect as it should be.