Stupid teen angst/melodrama bullshit post
So Friday I went to a football game (really not my thing, but whatever) and this guy started following me and myfriends gong "girls, girls, girls!" Finally I turned around and yelled "What the FUCK do you want!?!" He just wanted us to sneak them into the game, but when my friend saw how hott they were she's like "Ugh, why you do you ALWAYS have to be such a bitch to guys?"
We were just messing around but it really pissed me off (I cut that night, due to various reasons) because I realised that its true, which is odd because not long ago all I wanted was to be wanted. I feel like my ED started because I wanted to be thin so guys would notice me and I would feel loved for once. But I'm not that girl anymore, I hate those girls and I mock those girls. You know? Those who's entire world revolves around guys, especially guys who are asshole's to them
Anyways, the point of all this (if there is one) is I feel ike I'm a bitch to guys and hate a lot of them because I have some crazy resentmant torwards them. Like they're the cause of my ED (not true)
If someone liked me I probably woldn't give a damn, and I doubt I would like them back anyways.
The ONE guy I do have feelings for s waaayyyyy past of limits.
A.) He's my friend's brother (which is a big no-no for me!)
B.) He's like 19! I know, its totally gross, considering I'm 15.
We were just messing around but it really pissed me off (I cut that night, due to various reasons) because I realised that its true, which is odd because not long ago all I wanted was to be wanted. I feel like my ED started because I wanted to be thin so guys would notice me and I would feel loved for once. But I'm not that girl anymore, I hate those girls and I mock those girls. You know? Those who's entire world revolves around guys, especially guys who are asshole's to them
Anyways, the point of all this (if there is one) is I feel ike I'm a bitch to guys and hate a lot of them because I have some crazy resentmant torwards them. Like they're the cause of my ED (not true)
If someone liked me I probably woldn't give a damn, and I doubt I would like them back anyways.
The ONE guy I do have feelings for s waaayyyyy past of limits.
A.) He's my friend's brother (which is a big no-no for me!)
B.) He's like 19! I know, its totally gross, considering I'm 15.