lord im comin home to you!

[barbiebabe1213]

ok well i think that i am going to reafirm my self and become a better christian! i want to find myself thru christ and see what i have been missing.. i was always brought up in a strong cristian enviroment i have just forgotten my morales and what all that i learned. i kno u think that it is crazy that i am doing this but i want people to see a new side of me! a better person that you want to talk to and be around. I see that in myself something is missing but i think that the lord could possibly fill my hole and help me make it thru this tough time. i also found out that last night there are alot of people that do love me and i feel special for that! i cant quite tell u exaactly how i feel because i kno that yall wont ever understand what is going on because i dont quite know myself.!.!.! i think that if i talk to my really close "friend" that i have been talkin to this about lately some more that i can feel better about whats going on! last night i had one of the hardest nights because i cried myself to sleep... as weird as it may sound it was actually comforting to do that i think that it helped me and i want to do that some time again as crazy as it may sound lol! well whatever i had an ok day matt told me if i broke up with patrick he would kill me n i went over to pats after school to see how he was doing i mean he is soo sick n all lol! n then i went home and ran like 2 miles to starbucks! yeah go me then i went and got bbq sauce and covered ~!@#*% car with it omg thats rite u lil bitch! hope u have fun cleaning that off! well i think that im gonna go to bed! love yall so much!
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