Take a look at your LJ friends list, then list things you want to say to ten different LJ friends.
DO NOT state who these people are.
DO NOT confirm or deny any "comment speculation".
Then tag five people.
1. They tell me you're a BNF. I don't know about that -- all I know is that you share my fascination with the Classical world and the beauties (and terrors) it held. I'm often quite jealous of you because you can read Latin -- my attempts to learn the language are going far less well than George Washington's. Once, in a subchat, I pretended I was you (we were being naughty and playing "Imitate the Admins" that day). I felt erudite and accomplished. Can I be you when I grow up? ;)
2. I have every album you ever made. I introduce your music to everyone I know -- there's something for everyone -- whether it's droll or heart-rending. I sing your songs under my breath while I'm working, I play them on my stereo while I'm cleaning. You are one of the reasons the soundtrack for my life is so off the beaten path. If I ever get recognized for my music and they ask me who my inspirations are? You're on the list -- right next to Leslie Fish.
3. *Snarky, non-political whistling* Thank you for being a voice of reason in the darkness, a breath of civilized behaviour in the wilderness, a safe haven when there was no one else who Got It.
4. A fair number of people on my flist are there because they're fun. You're not one of those. You're feeding my brain. Do you know how much I enjoy data and analysis? How much discussing ideas and perceptions and possibilities feeds some dark little corner of my brain? You drop a datapoint in and I feel this sensual, electric shock as it slides into place and the connections leap across my cranium like electrified chains from this to that to the other thing. The details become connected in this deep, intricate web -- and my bones are left singing as something else is slotted into place. Thank you.
5. Gimme fic. Me want fic. Me want more fic. *poke poke pokety poke* Write, dammit. I want to know more about ____ and ____. And what about that story you started about ____ and his ____? And there's _____ and _____ -- they're so adorable! So write, dammit! *shakes fist*
6. Stop it. Just stop it. I'm so frustrated by the constant stream of self-denigration! Genug! Enough! You wonder why people don't post on your self-flagellating posts, but post on the completely trivial ones? Because we're exhausted by trying to convince you that -- yes, you are a worthy human being. You are a worthy human being. You are a worthy human being. You are a worthy human being. You are a worthy human being. You are a worthy human being. You are a worthy human being. How many times to we have to say it?!? Stop tearing yourself to pieces. Just stop it.
7. I don't claim to understand the complexity of your relationship with ______. Not being poly myself, I will never grok it. You're all adults, you've all made your choices, and you all seem content with the compromises. It's just that -- well, I've seen your partner's eyes when you go off with another person and it hurts me to see them so pained and sad. I wish you could see what I see. But I don't think _____ will ever show you, for fear of losing you.
8. Thank you for taking the time to listen. When I felt like the greatest failure in the world, you took the time to tell me -- and you had the vocabulary to articulate it in a way i could internalize -- that there is nothing wrong with me. That it's a stylistic difference and that I, in the real world, am a better example than the freakishness which goes on at my workplace. You've never mollycoddled anyone, or beat around the bush, so I believe you. You've always played straight with me. Thank you.
9. *tackleglomp* You need to receive this more often. And I need to do this to you in person.
10. Thank you for making me welcome. I was angry and sad and deeply hurt and you offered me a place to rest and rediscover my sense of fun. I'm sure you don't know how precious that is to me -- you helped me re-discover my ability to play and that is worth its weight in rubies.
I tag:
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elfie_chan,
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figmo,
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moose42,
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unna and
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frankieb_sq87