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yesterday morning i read a short story: 'The Dream of a Ridiculous Man' by Dostoyevsky, it bothered me because i feel it embodies something important in the modern OTO. there are separate currents, one much happier then then other... i dont like happy things im sorry i hate the happy thelemites, the hopeful ones- i hate them because there is something important and desperate about fulfilling this incarnation- life is a criminally desperate act- EVERY breath should be heavy with intentions- even in our sin, life of its self is wasteful, there is no hope that should make us live in a 'happy' lives, becoming GODS WILL is to become creator and to love your fellow creators, this in its self is a terrable purpose because it includes the possibility that you fulfill your 'duty' as a thelemite and in doing become no longer 'useful' and thus 'absorbed in the infinite'.
but then that is just my interpretation.
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'eudaimona' to me embodies the hopeful ones, these magicians come to believe that by way of thelemic wisdom or the LAW of Thelema there can be found rules, or rituals- with which we can make our own lives happy- that somehow in finding a grip on things... by controlling the shadows in this illusion; making the shadows dance to our will on the cave wall of plato's allegory we can find a happy life- and in the exercise of this 'magic' we can reach somehow subconsciously the HGA. excellency somehow is found in perfect utilization of the ego's own wish fulfillment, realized by our ritual career.
i say that is not the message. the seeming nihilism of realizing ones purpose this life has is ALL that there is- outside of that is the true illusion, that there is no such thing as a realm of platonic forms or a spirit plane- there is no maya only flesh, no heavenly kingdom on the other side of the line of human perception; i think it obvious that these things are embellishments in our own imaginations- dreams that dreamers have... this is not the 'good news' that we can change the shape or color of a dream, the good news of liber al is that here in this live we have something necessary to fulfill _IN THIS LIFE_ and not another- that by living a life filled with intentions and purpose- even i assume by way of foolish imagination, one can see the real world is written with its own works- as part of those works an innocuous truth comes to fruition, easily simplified yet hard for most to actually grasp; that man is capable yet unwilling to choose 'thelema' over the shiny idea of 'eudaimonia', that righteous intent is less important then a happy soul.
of course Thelema is form of Agape, that gods love and gods will are the same jewel- a higher love of the other and our selves can only make one feel more responsible for the well being of all humanity- as long as it exists to achieve its purpose it does not require us to 'know' a thing but to see the truth higher then whys-leading infinitely to because, because, because, rather then knowing the laws required to live a happy life; one simply becomes what IS by nature human and that in its self is a joy and needs nothing other then LIFE its self tempered with LOVE of the living and the nature of a sublime existence.
is life a sport which is made excellent by living well?
but then that is just my interpretation.
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'eudaimona' to me embodies the hopeful ones, these magicians come to believe that by way of thelemic wisdom or the LAW of Thelema there can be found rules, or rituals- with which we can make our own lives happy- that somehow in finding a grip on things... by controlling the shadows in this illusion; making the shadows dance to our will on the cave wall of plato's allegory we can find a happy life- and in the exercise of this 'magic' we can reach somehow subconsciously the HGA. excellency somehow is found in perfect utilization of the ego's own wish fulfillment, realized by our ritual career.
i say that is not the message. the seeming nihilism of realizing ones purpose this life has is ALL that there is- outside of that is the true illusion, that there is no such thing as a realm of platonic forms or a spirit plane- there is no maya only flesh, no heavenly kingdom on the other side of the line of human perception; i think it obvious that these things are embellishments in our own imaginations- dreams that dreamers have... this is not the 'good news' that we can change the shape or color of a dream, the good news of liber al is that here in this live we have something necessary to fulfill _IN THIS LIFE_ and not another- that by living a life filled with intentions and purpose- even i assume by way of foolish imagination, one can see the real world is written with its own works- as part of those works an innocuous truth comes to fruition, easily simplified yet hard for most to actually grasp; that man is capable yet unwilling to choose 'thelema' over the shiny idea of 'eudaimonia', that righteous intent is less important then a happy soul.
of course Thelema is form of Agape, that gods love and gods will are the same jewel- a higher love of the other and our selves can only make one feel more responsible for the well being of all humanity- as long as it exists to achieve its purpose it does not require us to 'know' a thing but to see the truth higher then whys-leading infinitely to because, because, because, rather then knowing the laws required to live a happy life; one simply becomes what IS by nature human and that in its self is a joy and needs nothing other then LIFE its self tempered with LOVE of the living and the nature of a sublime existence.
is life a sport which is made excellent by living well?