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Blair dumped me yesterday.
It was one of those periods when you feel completely connected to everything in your life, but that feeling's all held together by one person.
Now everything's fallen back out of place.
I had a regatta [crew race] today which always has tables of carbs sitting in front of you.
It's so annoying, and everyone completely pigs out.
So considering that among other factors, food's been shitty too.
Food:
8.5 glasses of water
1/2 Bagel w/ cream cheese [fucking ughhh]
handfull of Goldfish
some grapes
strawberries/ 1 banana/ carrots WITH fucking dip
3 fucking mini muffins
Now I'm fucking hungry again and I'm tempted to eat 1/2 a chicken wrap.
I fail at everything, friends/ boyfriend have gone to shit, school's gone to shit, crew's gone to shit, singing's gone to shit.
I hate how he said I made him unhappy.
Especially since I feel like he made me SO happy. He was what I could always fall back on and I barely realized.
Sometimes, you find your counterpart in someone else. When that happens, you do everything within your dignity to hold on to that person, because it's so rare, you don't want to let it escape.
It was one of those periods when you feel completely connected to everything in your life, but that feeling's all held together by one person.
Now everything's fallen back out of place.
I had a regatta [crew race] today which always has tables of carbs sitting in front of you.
It's so annoying, and everyone completely pigs out.
So considering that among other factors, food's been shitty too.
Food:
8.5 glasses of water
1/2 Bagel w/ cream cheese [fucking ughhh]
handfull of Goldfish
some grapes
strawberries/ 1 banana/ carrots WITH fucking dip
3 fucking mini muffins
Now I'm fucking hungry again and I'm tempted to eat 1/2 a chicken wrap.
I fail at everything, friends/ boyfriend have gone to shit, school's gone to shit, crew's gone to shit, singing's gone to shit.
I hate how he said I made him unhappy.
Especially since I feel like he made me SO happy. He was what I could always fall back on and I barely realized.
Sometimes, you find your counterpart in someone else. When that happens, you do everything within your dignity to hold on to that person, because it's so rare, you don't want to let it escape.