Well.......
I think I have forgotten the last time I posed in here.... so If I write stuff I already wrote... sorry. That is IF anyone actually read this.... I have to remember that its not probably read much so I am just rambling to myself... or... whatever....
I have falled into a depression... AGAIN :( I dont know if its because my Savella isnt working because I am only taking a half dose, when I remember, to make it last till I can go see a specalist and hopefully get on Cymbalta or whatever its called that they give you for Fibromyalgia in Australia.
I think part of it is just feeling isolated, my only socal interactions are online and Scott , I realise that its really pathetic but what am I going to do? I like staying at home more than going around places, but I don't meet any people and when I do I probably cling to them because I am just so desperate to finally talk to someone outside of my normal routine. I miss chatting with my sister too, shes not got the net back as far as I can tell but going on Skype was good. I talk to Ness heaps on vent, although alot of it is her worrying that the man she likes doesn't like her back... lol, shes as bad as I was when I was a teenager with Geoff and then again when I first met Scott.
So pretty much I'm back to not wanting to do anything but desperately wanting to do something. I don't want to walk the dogs, I don't want to face life. I am so bored...... and this is just pathetic.....
I really want to smoke the Kronic, synthetic pot and its legal, but I know that if I smoke it to escape having to feel depressed I don't think I could stop and I don't want to become addicted to it, because even tho its legal it can't be good for you... and it would get expensive.... fast.