They all like me better on my knees.

[bang_sigh]

I don't know how to do this anymore. I don't know how I can do this. I'm just so angry and sad and upset. I just want to be happy. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I really really don't want to be hurt anymore. I just want to be able to smile and mean it. I want to be genuinely happy again. I miss it so much. I wish I could not cry everyday. I wish that having not cried one day this week wasn't a feat. I wish I didn't cry in school.

I just miss being happy. This school year isn't going to be as great as I thought.