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So I had this idea during photo today to take pictures of my hands. One has my acrylics on it, and has little stars drawn on it, and the other is clean with no acrylics and my nails look rough and I have cuts on my knuckles. I was looking at them one on top of the other and it was like, "The two sides of me." Like the side of me that's cute and girly and the side of me that's really raw, and can take pain and is dirty. So I got home and I put my camera on my desk and put on hand on top of the other and put like my fingers in between eachother so it was like alternating fingers per hand, and I put them in front of my face, so you couldn't see my face. All you could see was my hair and like my head, but my hands were covering my face itself.
I took a few of those then I looked at my girlish hand. I saw that I had the lyrics "Never again will I kiss you. Never again will I want too," written on my hand. It's from Kelly Clarkson's new song and it's absolutely amazing. That lyric has been my motivation for a lot of things lately becuase of my current (and unfortunate) state. When I first heard it was a few days before metalfest, but I didn't pay much attention to it. Then after metalfest I found myself infatuated with Max again. So I was watching TRL yesterday and I saw the video and it made me cry how well that song correlated with my life. So I wrote it on my hand during math. So when I saw it when I was taking pictures I said, "I have to have that in one of my pictures." So I took it off and re-wrote it so that it was legible. Then I put my hand against my face and focused the camera on my hand and not on my face and looked away from the camera so my hand and the lyric were the thing in the camera.
Then I was thinking about how I don't want all of my pictures to have words in it and I thought about what Mr.Cataldo would say. I figured it would be something along the lines of, "You need more variety in your pictures. Why do you always take pictures with words?" and I decided I'd say, "Because words are the most beautiful things in the world. I love them." Then I realized how true it was. I have always had an obsession with words. Lyrics litter everything I own, everytime I hear something I like I write it down so I don't forget it. Words are absolutely gorgeous.
I also decided that latin is my favorite language. I might not be that good at it but I just love it so much. Most latin words have the most amazing meanings. I like latin phrases so much. I plan on getting "vivo" tattooed on my upper back which means "living". Like, "So, how are you?" "Well, you know, I'm living." meaning, I'm getting by. There are some that are just so amazing to me. I've been looking for them to see if I can take pictures after any of them, and so far my favorite is, (I've only gotten half way throught he A's) "Amor est vitae essentia" which means "Love is the essence of life." and for that picture I was to like write it on someone's stomach to represent birth.
Well Leah's coming over today and her boyfriend left to go to outward bound for three months and she's been really sad about it and stuff. So I found this phrase; "Ad interim" which means "for the meantime" and it seemed really perfect. So I'm going to have Leah holding a sign that says, "ego requiro te. sed ad interim..." (Which means "I miss you. but for the meantime..." and she's going to be sad or crying. Like she misses Jarrett and for the meantime she's sad. I was excited about that one.
For some reason I feel so fucking liberated right now.
Liberation comes in second (after words) to the most beautiful thing on earth.
I took a few of those then I looked at my girlish hand. I saw that I had the lyrics "Never again will I kiss you. Never again will I want too," written on my hand. It's from Kelly Clarkson's new song and it's absolutely amazing. That lyric has been my motivation for a lot of things lately becuase of my current (and unfortunate) state. When I first heard it was a few days before metalfest, but I didn't pay much attention to it. Then after metalfest I found myself infatuated with Max again. So I was watching TRL yesterday and I saw the video and it made me cry how well that song correlated with my life. So I wrote it on my hand during math. So when I saw it when I was taking pictures I said, "I have to have that in one of my pictures." So I took it off and re-wrote it so that it was legible. Then I put my hand against my face and focused the camera on my hand and not on my face and looked away from the camera so my hand and the lyric were the thing in the camera.
Then I was thinking about how I don't want all of my pictures to have words in it and I thought about what Mr.Cataldo would say. I figured it would be something along the lines of, "You need more variety in your pictures. Why do you always take pictures with words?" and I decided I'd say, "Because words are the most beautiful things in the world. I love them." Then I realized how true it was. I have always had an obsession with words. Lyrics litter everything I own, everytime I hear something I like I write it down so I don't forget it. Words are absolutely gorgeous.
I also decided that latin is my favorite language. I might not be that good at it but I just love it so much. Most latin words have the most amazing meanings. I like latin phrases so much. I plan on getting "vivo" tattooed on my upper back which means "living". Like, "So, how are you?" "Well, you know, I'm living." meaning, I'm getting by. There are some that are just so amazing to me. I've been looking for them to see if I can take pictures after any of them, and so far my favorite is, (I've only gotten half way throught he A's) "Amor est vitae essentia" which means "Love is the essence of life." and for that picture I was to like write it on someone's stomach to represent birth.
Well Leah's coming over today and her boyfriend left to go to outward bound for three months and she's been really sad about it and stuff. So I found this phrase; "Ad interim" which means "for the meantime" and it seemed really perfect. So I'm going to have Leah holding a sign that says, "ego requiro te. sed ad interim..." (Which means "I miss you. but for the meantime..." and she's going to be sad or crying. Like she misses Jarrett and for the meantime she's sad. I was excited about that one.
For some reason I feel so fucking liberated right now.
Liberation comes in second (after words) to the most beautiful thing on earth.