an actualy journal entry O_O
This is just a rant of sorts that more personal that the usual crap I put here, while I'm printing out NCIS and SGA fanficts to go read and get lost in.
I'm just having one of those emo brakes down days when nothing seems to be right with the world and everything seems wrong, so in short, depressed.
Despite having to put my 16 year old cat to sleep a few weeks ago, and still grieving one I lost years ago then seeing someone you like kiss someone else... Then it's "that" time of the month to boot... just doesn’t denote a happy day. just wish I could go to sleep and wake up and all my little coping mechanisms worked and everything would be ok again... gotta love being a mild manic depressive sometimes, it would be fun if it wasnt so shitty... I just want to write some crappy sentimental angst ridden fict but I cant think up a plot or even what gonra I wana put it in that would work for this crappy feeling... writing always helps though, so that's why this is here until I figure out a plot I can shove it all into... I would go with something original, but those never get finished and takes to long /sigh...
Well my ficts are printed... off not to at least read about someone else’s angst...