umm yea.....
Why is it when you feel like your life cant possibly get any worse it does? Ive come to a horrible realization today and am so depressed. I realized that Im unknowingly pushing away everyone in my life. All the people I really care about and all the amazing friends I used to have Ive pushed away. I mean, I dont even know why or how Im doing it but I am. There are a few people that someone how managed to stay but the rest of them Ive sucessfully pushed so far away that Im not sure things could be fixed. The few people that are left are slowly starting to go as well, I found out today and I have no idea how im doing this or why. As far as the why part I can only assume that Im afraid of being left or hurt so I push them away before they can do it to me.
To all of those who I have done it too Im sooo sorry. Sorrier than you will ever know and to the ones who are still around thank you for being awesome. I know that this probably all sounds retarted but oh well, its my journal I can sound like a retard if I want to.
*sighs* life sucks sometimes
To all of those who I have done it too Im sooo sorry. Sorrier than you will ever know and to the ones who are still around thank you for being awesome. I know that this probably all sounds retarted but oh well, its my journal I can sound like a retard if I want to.
*sighs* life sucks sometimes