there's holes in the floor of heaven
so i am currently at work, and looking forward to being done tomorrow!
I have realized (and learned) a lot of the past four months.
Classes were challenging, yet oddly manageable. I really enjoyed myself.
However, in the past two months I have found myself falling back into
my depressive moods, mostly due in part to the situations with my "friends."
The people that I was friends with before college no longer talk to me, I tried.
I have left messages and tried, but have decided that it is a hopeless cause.
My new friends up here were great at the beginning, yet recently I've been feeling like
I am being used? i suppose. I am not really sure what I expect from friendships anymore,
and i am not sure if I should really try anymore. Some of Zach's friends have been nicer to
me than the people I thought were my friends at home and here.
I just feel lost sometimes, because I feel like there is no one around and I feel alone.
It's the worst feeling in the world, yet I know that there is no reason to go home because
I don't have friends there anymore, either.
But as for the school, I love it here. I have so much fun at work and in classes. Our professors
really do care, my chemistry professor was so awesome he curved our grades extremely
and helped most of us make the dean's list because of it, lol! I cannot wait to get back
here in the spring, which is amazing because I usually hate school.
It's amazing how much can be learned in four months time.
I have realized (and learned) a lot of the past four months.
Classes were challenging, yet oddly manageable. I really enjoyed myself.
However, in the past two months I have found myself falling back into
my depressive moods, mostly due in part to the situations with my "friends."
The people that I was friends with before college no longer talk to me, I tried.
I have left messages and tried, but have decided that it is a hopeless cause.
My new friends up here were great at the beginning, yet recently I've been feeling like
I am being used? i suppose. I am not really sure what I expect from friendships anymore,
and i am not sure if I should really try anymore. Some of Zach's friends have been nicer to
me than the people I thought were my friends at home and here.
I just feel lost sometimes, because I feel like there is no one around and I feel alone.
It's the worst feeling in the world, yet I know that there is no reason to go home because
I don't have friends there anymore, either.
But as for the school, I love it here. I have so much fun at work and in classes. Our professors
really do care, my chemistry professor was so awesome he curved our grades extremely
and helped most of us make the dean's list because of it, lol! I cannot wait to get back
here in the spring, which is amazing because I usually hate school.
It's amazing how much can be learned in four months time.