blaaaaaaah
I feel like my life is stuck. Stale in a way. I have my wonderful family, besties, and Matty, idk I'm not satisfied.
Even though I love being responsible settled down I miss my wild single days. I don't miss the slutty part, but I somewhat miss the crazy parties and having a huge group of friends. Granted the majority of them were fairweathered and a lot of drama/shit went down, but my life was eventful. I didn't feel stuck and even though the booty calls weren't my favorite it was with someone who made them okay/exciting. I love my bf and he's what I've always wanted, but my demented self misses the non-official guy :/
I know I've always talked about wanting a bf and now I have it and honestly I couldn't be happier, but naughty/guy side misses dismissing guys and moving on. Now that my girly side is satisfied my guy side needs that satisfaction as well. I don't miss the drama or disappointment, but the excitement has settled. I'm probably feeling this way becaue the bf is gone and I don't have that insist satisfaction right now. I know distance makes the heart grow fonder and waiting for something worthwhile is way worth the wait especially for the bf.
Idk I just feel like I'm in a rut. I think once Saturday comes and goes I feel a bit better because I'll have new clothes. Then Monday I'm getting my hair did. Then once I can get my half sleeve and gauges re-done I'll be complete pretty much. Ugh I just want out of AZ. I want to be in LA, San Diego, London, Chicago, or New York City. If it's possible I think I'm gonna visit the bf because I need a change of scenery and maybe we can go to Niagara Falls.
Uuuuugh frustration. I need some lovin'
Even though I love being responsible settled down I miss my wild single days. I don't miss the slutty part, but I somewhat miss the crazy parties and having a huge group of friends. Granted the majority of them were fairweathered and a lot of drama/shit went down, but my life was eventful. I didn't feel stuck and even though the booty calls weren't my favorite it was with someone who made them okay/exciting. I love my bf and he's what I've always wanted, but my demented self misses the non-official guy :/
I know I've always talked about wanting a bf and now I have it and honestly I couldn't be happier, but naughty/guy side misses dismissing guys and moving on. Now that my girly side is satisfied my guy side needs that satisfaction as well. I don't miss the drama or disappointment, but the excitement has settled. I'm probably feeling this way becaue the bf is gone and I don't have that insist satisfaction right now. I know distance makes the heart grow fonder and waiting for something worthwhile is way worth the wait especially for the bf.
Idk I just feel like I'm in a rut. I think once Saturday comes and goes I feel a bit better because I'll have new clothes. Then Monday I'm getting my hair did. Then once I can get my half sleeve and gauges re-done I'll be complete pretty much. Ugh I just want out of AZ. I want to be in LA, San Diego, London, Chicago, or New York City. If it's possible I think I'm gonna visit the bf because I need a change of scenery and maybe we can go to Niagara Falls.
Uuuuugh frustration. I need some lovin'