take me or leave me

Feb 23, 2006 00:56

so i dont get it. candice told me that our outing tomorrow isnt a date. it's just four people hanging out. yet, this guy has been talking about how he wants a gf & i have been talking about how i want a bf...& then all of a sudden this? she says they arent trying to set us up but it sure seems like it. if shes not trying to set us up, then why cant i be myself? i mean...i said something & she was like thats the kinda weird stuff u have to avoid. & she says that this is so that i can meet new people. whats wrong with my old people? why are people trying to change me? i love my friends that i have. i really do. altho i may complain bc im single, im happy with my life as a whole. why do people want to change me? why cant they just accept my quirks, no matter how strange & let me be? theres someone out there who will accept me & love me for my personaltiy, my weird oddities, & we will get along fine. i have more friends on campus then them. & i need new friends? just bc my friends arent like their friends & involved in some stuff they are involved in doesnt mean that i need new friends. i think they need to see that not everyone fits into a mold bc we werent meant to fit into a mold. everyone is unique & you have to accept that as it is; not try to change someone bc they are different from you. if everyone was the same, this world would be a boring place. & i dont think it's fair that people are trying to change me...trying to take away my own individualism. i was raised to be an independent thinker, not to conform to what others want. i dont want people that like me bc i fit into what society thinks is "normal." i want people to like me for who & what i am. maybe thats why i like my friends back home so much...they dont try to change me but accept me. DTCC taught us about that. i mean, theres stuff i dont like about other people but it's what makes them who they are. & you're never gunna 100% click with someone. & if i have to change myself just so a guy will like me, forget it. ive tried that & it's the hardest thing to do. so heres who i am, take it or leave it, your choice: i am carey grace atlas, unique person.
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