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ok so i want to write so that i can write but so that sam cant see it. which means i cant write on xanga bc he reads that. im a little wondering...its been 2 weeks of dating & he mentioned something today about some guy telling him he could either casually date me or seriously date me. now im worried cause those are loaded words. casually could mean so many things! does it mean that he can date me while dating others? does it mean that he flits around to people after a couple of weeks? does it mean he dates me til the end of the year & then we part & thats that? then dating seriously is kinda interesting too. does that mean that he could end up marrying me after a few years of dating? or does it mean that we date for as long as we can until it just doesnt seem right anymore? these words i dont understand. their meanings are so obscure. & then theres the fact that he has mentioned marriage as several years in the future, which is perfectly fine with me. i dont want to rush anything & im perfectly content with just dating for several years. but im afraid to bring this up bc i dont want him to think that im trying to push him to something & i dont want him to think that ive decided that im going to marry him. however, my stand on it is that im happy seriously dating him (as defined by a guy as "serious datin would be like seein each other very frequently...goin out, payin for things for one another, kissin alot...doin a lot of things together...acknowledgin the other as a bf/gf"...thanks muchly for that!) for several years & then, if it's where we are supposed to be, getting married. i can wait & i am very willing to wait a long time before any commitment like that is made. ok so yah, i just got a phone call from my sister & she just had a baby boy!!! Andrew! woohoot!! now i hope this week flies fast fast bc i wanna go home & see the little guy! ooooo thursday, cmon & get here!!! ok now im happily hyper:):):)