Spongbob and Sunday Mornings
So I woke up this morning with an urge to curl up on the couch and watch some Sponge Bob. Not normally my normal morning routine but I thought hey what the heck. So now I sit here engulfed in nickelodeon, munching on an oatmeal cookie, and just thinking about the past weekend... well more like the past few months. Sooo much has changed in my life, in a way I feel that I've even became a different person. Older maybe? More mature? Idk what ever the case is things are different now.
I'm not going to say I don't miss Maryland because I do. I crave the nights driving around with Amanda hollering at all the creeps on Potomac Street, eating McDonald's snack wraps with Kelly, and even more so spending time with my Momma. But Boston is the new me, with it's crowded subways, crappy accents, and rainy days. But truly, Boston wouldn't be Boston without my roommates, all 5 of them :D - Katie, Kellie, Jack, Nikolay, and Andrea. I love them all. I look forward to having backyard cookouts and decorating our Christmas tree with them over these next few months with them.
Beyond my location change and the gaining of 5 awesome roomies, the next major change in my life would be school. I have officially graduated with my Associates in Psychology and am now at UMass Boston working on my Bachelors, yet again :D. It's going to be a long 2 more years, but it's an essential step in my life if I ever wanna get anywhere. So I'll just have to suck it up and work through it. Then maybe I'll just move to Ireland or something and become a potato farmer. I do love me some potatoes.
The next and possibly most challenging change in my life would be my new confidence in being gay. Yeah some might not see that as a huge accomplishment but it surely is. I've been out to my close friends and a few family members but finally accepting it all was even harder than admitting it. Most already knew before I told them, which makes me wonder why did I even hide it? Because Jesus said not to? Because I was ashamed? Because I didn't want "gay" to be one of my defining characteristics? All of the above? No matter what the reason I hid it and it feels good to no longer do that. I admit even though I've accepted my sexuality there are still challenges I'll endure and I'm slowly working on that.
With this new change in my life, the next obvious topic thats on my mind is BOYS. Yeah let me sounds like a 13 year old girl for a second. Why must they be so cute and so challenging. As for my current boy situation there's only really 1 guy. His name is Martin Caferelli, facebook him if you must. We met 2 months ago, January 17th to be exact lol. He's cute, adorable, and makes me feel special. He's had a rough life so far, but some of the craziness he's been through makes me like him even more. Now onto the challenging part... above all the awesomeness there's only one difficulty- he loves me. Doesn't sound that horrible, huh. But that's not the exact problem, its how he's into me more than I'm into him. I do believe that my feelings for him will grow, but that may not be enough for him. He just has to realize that my lack of feelings isn't a bad thing. It'd doesnt mean I hate him, it doesn't mean I don't find him attractive, it just means there's room for us to grow. I may not be ready for a relationship right now, but if he sticks around we'll see where it will go.
Ok I am officially done ranting, but I figured since I haven't written in here in a long time, I'd make it a good one.
Later lovasss <3
I'm not going to say I don't miss Maryland because I do. I crave the nights driving around with Amanda hollering at all the creeps on Potomac Street, eating McDonald's snack wraps with Kelly, and even more so spending time with my Momma. But Boston is the new me, with it's crowded subways, crappy accents, and rainy days. But truly, Boston wouldn't be Boston without my roommates, all 5 of them :D - Katie, Kellie, Jack, Nikolay, and Andrea. I love them all. I look forward to having backyard cookouts and decorating our Christmas tree with them over these next few months with them.
Beyond my location change and the gaining of 5 awesome roomies, the next major change in my life would be school. I have officially graduated with my Associates in Psychology and am now at UMass Boston working on my Bachelors, yet again :D. It's going to be a long 2 more years, but it's an essential step in my life if I ever wanna get anywhere. So I'll just have to suck it up and work through it. Then maybe I'll just move to Ireland or something and become a potato farmer. I do love me some potatoes.
The next and possibly most challenging change in my life would be my new confidence in being gay. Yeah some might not see that as a huge accomplishment but it surely is. I've been out to my close friends and a few family members but finally accepting it all was even harder than admitting it. Most already knew before I told them, which makes me wonder why did I even hide it? Because Jesus said not to? Because I was ashamed? Because I didn't want "gay" to be one of my defining characteristics? All of the above? No matter what the reason I hid it and it feels good to no longer do that. I admit even though I've accepted my sexuality there are still challenges I'll endure and I'm slowly working on that.
With this new change in my life, the next obvious topic thats on my mind is BOYS. Yeah let me sounds like a 13 year old girl for a second. Why must they be so cute and so challenging. As for my current boy situation there's only really 1 guy. His name is Martin Caferelli, facebook him if you must. We met 2 months ago, January 17th to be exact lol. He's cute, adorable, and makes me feel special. He's had a rough life so far, but some of the craziness he's been through makes me like him even more. Now onto the challenging part... above all the awesomeness there's only one difficulty- he loves me. Doesn't sound that horrible, huh. But that's not the exact problem, its how he's into me more than I'm into him. I do believe that my feelings for him will grow, but that may not be enough for him. He just has to realize that my lack of feelings isn't a bad thing. It'd doesnt mean I hate him, it doesn't mean I don't find him attractive, it just means there's room for us to grow. I may not be ready for a relationship right now, but if he sticks around we'll see where it will go.
Ok I am officially done ranting, but I figured since I haven't written in here in a long time, I'd make it a good one.
Later lovasss <3