Video games, needles, headaches and loneliness.
I’m not unhappy or depressed right now, I’m just feeling kind of…messy.
I got allergy testing today from a very nice doctor, but it basically all came back negative except for a mild dust allergy and a possible reaction to wasps and hornets. We thought I might as well check allergies to see if it could have anything to do with the headaches, hives and health problems (triple H!). It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, but being poked with 30 needles and given 10 shots is pretty gross. And now I have all these creepy little dots, scabs and marks all over me.
I have the most horrid sinus headache on top of my regular headache. It feels like my brain is full of climbing pressure, as if I’m ascending a mountain. And I’m pretty sure that I am not.
I bought Sim City for my DS today and borrowed a few games from my boss, none of which have proved even remotely interesting except for Brain Age 2, which would be so much more fun without the ENDLESS instruction screens and chats from Japanese guy, the inability to properly select what sort of training you’d like to play and the absolutely horrible understanding it has of what you’ve entered. It really has only one gameplay function, processing what you input, and it does a horrid, infuriating job of it. I also bought this Ghost Recon pack at Future Shop because it came with a shirt, hat, belt, bag and like 5 games in the series for 20 bucks. I don’t know if I’ll like the games, but I bought it for the sweet gear. And I bought Cloverfield, Walk Hard, Rise, Year of the Dog and Hairspray at Blockbuster. However, I cannot enjoy any of these things, BECAUSE MY BRAIN IS TRYING TO ESCAPE FROM MY SKULL.
Oh and seem to have no idea where my DS charger is, now that it’s dying after I played it for a whole ten minutes today. It’s disappeared and the back-up charger that I’ve had for three years and finally took out of the package today, doesn’t even fit the slim model so it’s useless to me.
I think I’m feeling kind of lonely, or like I all of sudden want to meet new people. I’m not sure if it’s about dating or not. I want to get to know new friends, go new places. I’m spending some time messaging random people online but I always feel like it seems like I’m hitting on them. Sometimes I am, sometimes I’m not. I only message people whose interests actually engage me, but I still feel like a creeper for some reason. I know it’s a stupid thing to bitch about since it feels like I have a heap of friends, but it seems like I don’t have the same interests as a lot of my buddies anymore or I’m just not at ease around them. Maybe it’s me and I need to relax more. Maybe it would be fun to just party for a little while. But it seems like that’s not a viable option anymore. Why take a friend up on hanging or going out, when I could take a nap? Fuck, how sad is that?
I got allergy testing today from a very nice doctor, but it basically all came back negative except for a mild dust allergy and a possible reaction to wasps and hornets. We thought I might as well check allergies to see if it could have anything to do with the headaches, hives and health problems (triple H!). It wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be, but being poked with 30 needles and given 10 shots is pretty gross. And now I have all these creepy little dots, scabs and marks all over me.
I have the most horrid sinus headache on top of my regular headache. It feels like my brain is full of climbing pressure, as if I’m ascending a mountain. And I’m pretty sure that I am not.
I bought Sim City for my DS today and borrowed a few games from my boss, none of which have proved even remotely interesting except for Brain Age 2, which would be so much more fun without the ENDLESS instruction screens and chats from Japanese guy, the inability to properly select what sort of training you’d like to play and the absolutely horrible understanding it has of what you’ve entered. It really has only one gameplay function, processing what you input, and it does a horrid, infuriating job of it. I also bought this Ghost Recon pack at Future Shop because it came with a shirt, hat, belt, bag and like 5 games in the series for 20 bucks. I don’t know if I’ll like the games, but I bought it for the sweet gear. And I bought Cloverfield, Walk Hard, Rise, Year of the Dog and Hairspray at Blockbuster. However, I cannot enjoy any of these things, BECAUSE MY BRAIN IS TRYING TO ESCAPE FROM MY SKULL.
Oh and seem to have no idea where my DS charger is, now that it’s dying after I played it for a whole ten minutes today. It’s disappeared and the back-up charger that I’ve had for three years and finally took out of the package today, doesn’t even fit the slim model so it’s useless to me.
I think I’m feeling kind of lonely, or like I all of sudden want to meet new people. I’m not sure if it’s about dating or not. I want to get to know new friends, go new places. I’m spending some time messaging random people online but I always feel like it seems like I’m hitting on them. Sometimes I am, sometimes I’m not. I only message people whose interests actually engage me, but I still feel like a creeper for some reason. I know it’s a stupid thing to bitch about since it feels like I have a heap of friends, but it seems like I don’t have the same interests as a lot of my buddies anymore or I’m just not at ease around them. Maybe it’s me and I need to relax more. Maybe it would be fun to just party for a little while. But it seems like that’s not a viable option anymore. Why take a friend up on hanging or going out, when I could take a nap? Fuck, how sad is that?