I miss the days when I was sure that I was crazy.
I’ve decided that my personal life is living in two distinct, separate realities right now.
There are the friends from all over that text and e-mail me all the time. They are compassionate and understanding and they seem to actually ‘get’ me.
And there are the ones I hang out with. Who piss me off or do weird stuff that I don’t understand and seem to exhibit behaviour that is the totally opposite to what I would do.
It can’t really be them, right? No matter how many times everyone from the first group tells me that I’m in the right EVERY. SINGLE. TIME., well it just can’t be. I have to be causing this shit somewhere. The alternative is that everyone else went crazy. I’m having a hard time remembering the last time I hung out with somebody that didn’t piss me off. But I talk to the first group of friends every day and they don’t bug me in the slightest. I still think it has a lot to do with alcohol consumption. And maybe stress is affecting me more than I realize.
Something really weird is happening with Carrie. We haven’t really talked since I told her last week that I felt like the pieces of our friendships just weren’t fitting right and I needed some space. She didn’t take that well but before we could discuss it thoroughly, something went down. I don’t know what. She’s been down about it all week (I’ve been trying to cautiously stay in contact since I don’t want to ditch someone who’s dealing with something big) and I’ve never really seen her affected like this. She doesn’t want to tell me what’s going on, but it’s really weighing on her mind.
And the fact that she won’t tell me has me wondering if it’s something I shouldn’t know, like maybe something with her and Erica. Which would be awful, since I know Erica’s not interested in her like that and would only be doing with her what she did with me. But I don’t know what it could be, usually she doesn’t keep stuff hidden from me like this. It’s frustrating.
I really love the new Shaw commercial with the evil contract monster that “wants a sandwich”.
There are the friends from all over that text and e-mail me all the time. They are compassionate and understanding and they seem to actually ‘get’ me.
And there are the ones I hang out with. Who piss me off or do weird stuff that I don’t understand and seem to exhibit behaviour that is the totally opposite to what I would do.
It can’t really be them, right? No matter how many times everyone from the first group tells me that I’m in the right EVERY. SINGLE. TIME., well it just can’t be. I have to be causing this shit somewhere. The alternative is that everyone else went crazy. I’m having a hard time remembering the last time I hung out with somebody that didn’t piss me off. But I talk to the first group of friends every day and they don’t bug me in the slightest. I still think it has a lot to do with alcohol consumption. And maybe stress is affecting me more than I realize.
Something really weird is happening with Carrie. We haven’t really talked since I told her last week that I felt like the pieces of our friendships just weren’t fitting right and I needed some space. She didn’t take that well but before we could discuss it thoroughly, something went down. I don’t know what. She’s been down about it all week (I’ve been trying to cautiously stay in contact since I don’t want to ditch someone who’s dealing with something big) and I’ve never really seen her affected like this. She doesn’t want to tell me what’s going on, but it’s really weighing on her mind.
And the fact that she won’t tell me has me wondering if it’s something I shouldn’t know, like maybe something with her and Erica. Which would be awful, since I know Erica’s not interested in her like that and would only be doing with her what she did with me. But I don’t know what it could be, usually she doesn’t keep stuff hidden from me like this. It’s frustrating.
I really love the new Shaw commercial with the evil contract monster that “wants a sandwich”.