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hey well, we didnt have school on thursday and friday so that was nice. i went to physical theropy both days, AND I DONT HAVE TO HAVE SURGERY!!! that was an answer to alot of prayer. (thank you for those of you that were praying about it!) i was so relieved! i was really worried that i was, but God is in control... well the party on wednesday was fun....and hurtful, and depressing all at the same time. but i think things are better?! i dont know it is hard to tell. i think they are slowly becoming better, i sure hope so. talking is a good thing, but at the same time it was very painful. i just want to start this all over, but now that i think about it, it is going to be harder on me than i had hoped. but i did feel better after apologizing, so that was good. knowing that he doesnt want it has much as i do ,hurts. and i got my birthday pictures back on wednesday too. we had so much fun, and it kills me knowing that we might never get to do stuf like that again. but yall the pictures are so cute! do yall remember that one that we took in the kitchen with all of us around john? omg, it is so GOOD! it describes john perfectly, lol.and when he tied that big pink ribbon around his head?!? o that was great, we had so much fun that nite! and all the memories, gosh i would go on for days about all the stuf that we did together, laughin about the funniest things, or at least we thought they were funny! and late nite cryin phone calls that would last for hours. i can think of so many things, and when it gets easier i think i might write them all down, or something, b/c the good memories i will never want to forget, and i dont want to forget the rough moments either. but i would do anything for that boy to be happy, and if he is happy where he is, then that makes me happy for him. i personally might not be, but he is. and i can and will get over it all. i pray that this week will be better! im sure that it will be! but going to the movie tonite was fun, but you 2! you know who you are!! yall better be quite or we are going to get kicked out! and the other 2 of you! I WANT MY MONEY! im not jokin either. grrr.... ok well once again i have poured most of my heart out so i think i better stop before i completely lose it. well i hope that u are havin a good holiday weekend! love yall! ..:caroline:..