I want to go to the afterlife, but I don't want to die.

In the integral tree hypothesis calamities arose through choosing to ignore core relationship reality helix modules. helix modules are core replicator identity streams inherent in human being hypothesis theory coorelators. I have been afflicted by doubt hypothesis generators in my core relay systems operator. Am I human or a hybrid entity engulfed ( Read more... )

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"In the cold nether-regions of spacetime place holders initiated co-coagulating fissures in operating helix modules. To put it simply, the helix co-efficiency index overloaded and all receptors changed to Praise God faith evaluators. This triggered the act of Grace to abound and put in a hatred for sinly interests and colfax pursuits of all kinds. ( Read more... )

From my notes on 2/12/2017, 2/13/2017:

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The book Jonathan Strange and Mr. Norell had a huge impact on my subconscious, but as you can see here in my note from 2/12/2017, my delusion may or may not have anything to do with an elusive character from that book. These are auto-writ:

“The Raven King is a king of ravens and facilitator of their knowledge gathered mostly from digestion and ( Read more... )

From my notes on 2/12/2017. I was on low/not working medications at the time and had been drinking at night. I was entering psychosis. I was trying to organize all my past delusions into a structure so I wouldn’t forget them, little did I know I was waking the dead dreams back to life…:

“COSMOLOGY PHANATICA”

My Yearnings:
1. Freedom from Want ( ( Read more... )

I should first note that this blog is primarily for the use of other schizoaffectives and schizophrenics for understanding their own overflowing subconscious minds. I have kept notes of my delusions and some of it is automatic writing, where I did not know on the outset what would be written, since 2013. Other times it is personalities I gave voice ( Read more... )