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tomorrow is my first day of work
i get my car back finally :)
my first pay check is going to a new phone.
and real estate is fun. i love it.
and i cant wait until i actually start it start it...
but for now tony is my boss and im a virtual tour photographer 8)
and its so much fun
10 dollars per house
7 houses a day 5 days a week
every house takes 15 to 30 mins
thats 350 a week
700 in 2
300 more than what i was making at rite aid.
fuck bitches im gonna be banking
and then i shall start college next semester
im excited.
but not too excited b/c something always goes wrong for me for some reason
so im not gonna sky rocket my hopes i still have that small percent expecting everything to back fire.
but at the same time im thinking positive.
well anyway
lets jump subjects
i talked to ryan
not really
but i asked if he thinks things are changing between us
and he said no youre changing though youre so much more demanding now
so i guess i need to chill out when it comes to having things my way now..
and i guess im not gonna think about him a lot either or at least try but now that i have a sweet ass job i think it will make it easier
i get to meet so many ppl too hopefully i can get over him through that.
i mean i dont want to get over him. i love the boy to death and i would love it if i knew for a fact that i would be spending the rest of my life with him just bc he makes me so happy on so many levels but thats only when we get along when we dont then i feel like my world is falling apart.
and thats horrible because its getting to a point where he determines my good and bad days just by the way he acts
and i cant do that to myself its not healthy at all.
but its been a long six months and i need to chill out and stop making him my everything and thinking so much about every little thing he does or says.
i dont want to just act like i dont care i flat out just dont want to care period.
it would be so much easier but stephanie tells me i need to work at it everyday convincing myself i dont need him.
i want to have the upper hand in the relationship again :(.
idk. i need to just relax though.
im going to bed
i really really hope i have a good day tomorrow.
goodnight
i get my car back finally :)
my first pay check is going to a new phone.
and real estate is fun. i love it.
and i cant wait until i actually start it start it...
but for now tony is my boss and im a virtual tour photographer 8)
and its so much fun
10 dollars per house
7 houses a day 5 days a week
every house takes 15 to 30 mins
thats 350 a week
700 in 2
300 more than what i was making at rite aid.
fuck bitches im gonna be banking
and then i shall start college next semester
im excited.
but not too excited b/c something always goes wrong for me for some reason
so im not gonna sky rocket my hopes i still have that small percent expecting everything to back fire.
but at the same time im thinking positive.
well anyway
lets jump subjects
i talked to ryan
not really
but i asked if he thinks things are changing between us
and he said no youre changing though youre so much more demanding now
so i guess i need to chill out when it comes to having things my way now..
and i guess im not gonna think about him a lot either or at least try but now that i have a sweet ass job i think it will make it easier
i get to meet so many ppl too hopefully i can get over him through that.
i mean i dont want to get over him. i love the boy to death and i would love it if i knew for a fact that i would be spending the rest of my life with him just bc he makes me so happy on so many levels but thats only when we get along when we dont then i feel like my world is falling apart.
and thats horrible because its getting to a point where he determines my good and bad days just by the way he acts
and i cant do that to myself its not healthy at all.
but its been a long six months and i need to chill out and stop making him my everything and thinking so much about every little thing he does or says.
i dont want to just act like i dont care i flat out just dont want to care period.
it would be so much easier but stephanie tells me i need to work at it everyday convincing myself i dont need him.
i want to have the upper hand in the relationship again :(.
idk. i need to just relax though.
im going to bed
i really really hope i have a good day tomorrow.
goodnight