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today was church, i teach preschool (which sux i had 2nd grade last yr and it was so much better, nothing like a screaming bunch of whiny spoiled brats now tho..) well i had them do these painting things, the lil kid ones that u just add water to the paper and the color thats already there bleeds and its 'painting' to the lil kids...well the water got everyyywhere. cept only one of them got the stuff on her, thank god. im lucky her mom dint kill me cuz she had red and green splotches on her dress! i was like crap! anyways, i saw **** today, and i wont c him for another week and i dint say anything about my feelings...wow im stupid i guess...yesterday was great cuz i saw him then too. apparently im 'so obvious' that i like him n shit but thats a funny thing seeing as i only decided i did yesterday lol! cuz...yesterday was the pork supper at church (im in the youth group so i went to help...the youth group runs the thing) **** was asked to go get some stuff at the store so he asked me to go and we just took off. i hafta say it was so nice to get a taste of freedom, cuz if my mother knew i'd be fucked! i just...felt like his gf. i know thats weird n all, but like when we were at the store together he saw one of his old friends from school (hes a frosh in college) and his friend asked him if i was his gf. he just kinda shrugged. he dint say yes or no, so thats good right? well i found out his MOM talks about us! lol! mackie told me that at the halloween party he overheard joyce saying something about how we like eachother or something to that effect. i def dont talk to her about taht tho...but i wonder if he does? oh well....im just such a chicken shit! lol. neways...i got this thingy in the mail from the college i wanna go to (its in virginia...real close to dc) and its like this invitation thingy to go to this summer program where its like college for a month over the summer right b4 senior year. i wanna go soo bad. theres a political science type program thingy! its 2500 bucks tho, idk how ima do that. we'll see. im so excited for dance tomorow! its my first day back in like 3 or so weeks. my pt cleared me for dance, but i still cant run which blows. im getting fat w/no physical activity!! gah, i have so much homework and the workload is intense and im so stressed! gah...but NO SCHOOL TOMOROW! YAYNESS! lol