horror, and your help.
I have been selected, as voted on by my classmates and instructor, to read some of my poems at an upcoming college event "Writers Read," along with three fellow students in my poetry class. I've said I'll do it because I know it'll be good for me, but I'm in hell. I've had a constant tension and since sickness in my stomach since I committed, and if I'm going to be realistic, I know what will happen is I'll end up just not showing up, which will be very bad.
I write so that i DON'T HAVE to speak-- reading them out loud defeats the entire purpose!!! This is my outlet; not supposed to be my source of misery.
Out entire class is also going to do a reading, on a different night, this one in the campus coffeehouse, on Tues. I'm MORE nervous about that, even tho it's not prestigious like the other; because acquaintances will be wandering in & out hearing my deepest most ridiculous words & feelings; whereas "writers read" is mostly faculty, professional writers,and anyone who cares enough to buy a ticket (which, thanks very much freaking lang&lit dept secretary, for sending out a campus-wide email, as now my friends who read it are insistent on being present).
anyone, here's where i commission your help---
if you could look over my poems that i posted here several posts back, and tell me what your favorites are, what you think i should read (could be diff selections for writers read & the coffeehouse group), that would mean alot & i would be eternally grateful. but please, don't offer instructional commentary unless you have at least some slight idea of what the heck you are talking about (that goes for constructional criticism, not picks for what i should read). if i get no comments at all in response to this i shall hang myself. hearing others' opinions will be a help, even if only to serve as helping me figure out what i don't want, or am unable, to make myself read out loud.
I write so that i DON'T HAVE to speak-- reading them out loud defeats the entire purpose!!! This is my outlet; not supposed to be my source of misery.
Out entire class is also going to do a reading, on a different night, this one in the campus coffeehouse, on Tues. I'm MORE nervous about that, even tho it's not prestigious like the other; because acquaintances will be wandering in & out hearing my deepest most ridiculous words & feelings; whereas "writers read" is mostly faculty, professional writers,and anyone who cares enough to buy a ticket (which, thanks very much freaking lang&lit dept secretary, for sending out a campus-wide email, as now my friends who read it are insistent on being present).
anyone, here's where i commission your help---
if you could look over my poems that i posted here several posts back, and tell me what your favorites are, what you think i should read (could be diff selections for writers read & the coffeehouse group), that would mean alot & i would be eternally grateful. but please, don't offer instructional commentary unless you have at least some slight idea of what the heck you are talking about (that goes for constructional criticism, not picks for what i should read). if i get no comments at all in response to this i shall hang myself. hearing others' opinions will be a help, even if only to serve as helping me figure out what i don't want, or am unable, to make myself read out loud.