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[baebytears16]

ldfsdkfjsdjfsfjksdlfjsdfk erg. i hate my life. i hate pain. and i hate the way im feeling. i wanna cry. but theres no tears left to cry out. i wanna scream. but it just wont come out. im stuck crying in the inside of my heart and screaming inside my mind. kidfjsklfjd why does this alwayz happen to me. why do i even try? when sumthing good happens to me it alwayz end up bad or it ends. why do guys do this to me? he said he thought he was falling in love with me. he said he wanted to be with me. i hope that letter wasnt from him. god i hope. i cant do that again. he said he wouldnt hurt me like roni did. i told him i would wait for him. and that is wat i was doing. i gave up the love of my life for him. i gave up everything. sldfjsdlkj. i hate being me. i hate everything. i hate smiling and crying in the inside. i hate how im dying all over again. i thought he was different from the others. why do i let guys fool me like i do. how could i have let him fool me. how could i have believed him. how could i have smiled for a lie. how could i have fallen for a lie. i even hurt roni and mike in the process for him. how could i have done this. why do i have to go thru this again. what did i do so wrong. how could i be a fool. why could i even think it would be different. when i know in the end it alwayz falls apart or ends worse than it was before. alwayz. it alwayz is like this. alwayz ends like this. my life sucks. officially sucks. people tell me to only worry and care about myself for now but how can i when i hate myself. i love everyone and hate myself. all becuz of things like this. becuz im a fool. i just wanna drink my pain away. and then cry myself to sleep and not wake up becuz if i do ill still be crying.... i thought he would catch me if i fell but now im here lying on the ground asking for him to pick me up and he just smiles and walks away.

♥ alwayz.....
-*The Fool Who Fell For You*-