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[baebytears16]

erg. i hate this. i hate crying so much.... today would be 1 yr and 2 days. i would be in his arms. him holding me now. i wouldnt be crying. i wouldnt think of even cuttin myself or jumping off the balcony. i wouldnt be missin him soooo much. i wouldnt be crying. i would be the happiess person in the world. i need him. i want him. i need my everything. i sldfkjsdfkjs miss him. erg. i miss him sooo much. he's my world. my love. my life. my love. my baby. i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed him now and forever and for alwayz. lskdjfsldkjf i hate being me. i hate this. i hate all of this. i wish i was in his arms right now. him holding me. making my life complete. but im not in his arms. he's not holding me. i dont even have him the slightest bit. i dont have him at all. all i have is my love for him in my heart. and oh how its sooo strong. oh how i miss his love. i miss him. i cant just let him go. i just cant do it. ive tried. ive tried to forget allll about him. ive tried everything. but still in the end right now i would change anything to be with him. to be in his arms. to have him loving me. oh how i would change and give up everything for him. if only he knew. if only he saw me like i see him. if only he missed me. and loved me like i love him. if only... :'( sumone please take my pain and tears away. but the only person who can...isnt here and isnt willing to.

dksfsldjflsdkjfj i hate life. love. everything. i hate me....

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