oh my God oh my God
it has been 5 days. oh my God oh my God. i'm hating myself for the decisions i make. all i want to do is talk to you, and i can't because that wouldn't get us any where..how am i supposed to get over you-you're all that is on my mind. but it's not right. the timing is off. and i keep telling myself in a few years maybe it won't..we'll have grown up a bit. or we'll have figured out what we want-and that we aren't it..or maybe we will be it. i miss you i miss you i miss you. i listened to your voicemail. i think my heart broke. i am so sorry. and that sounds so cliche but i don't know what else to say. please don't hate me. i left the class room the other day and i couldn't make it all the way down the hall way before i started crying i had to go into the bathroom and i broke down..tried to get myself to get home to my apartment and broke down again. please don't think that i don't have a heart or that i don't miss you. please don't think that i'm okay. i am so far from okay.
i want to call you so bad. but what will that do? it won't do anything except get us right back in the same spot we have been. this relationship that isn't working. it's like half way there or 3/4 the way there...but it's not all the way there-and we have stuff we need to work out you do, and i do. and we can't be together to work them out. but i miss you i miss you i miss you.
i want to call you so bad. but what will that do? it won't do anything except get us right back in the same spot we have been. this relationship that isn't working. it's like half way there or 3/4 the way there...but it's not all the way there-and we have stuff we need to work out you do, and i do. and we can't be together to work them out. but i miss you i miss you i miss you.