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So theres this boy. He sees me at the bar a while ago and says "do you still like me? cause I still like you." What do I say in return.... "please dont tell me this unless you mean it, its not a game to me and it hurts when you change your mind." but he continues, and says he still cares about me and blah blah blah, how he cant control how hes going to feel in the future, but he does still like me and whatever else bullshit he can come up with. Well I tell him I dont want a boyfriend but that I do still care about him. He starts calling every day, I stay at his house about once a week. We get along, and soon i am once again in that place where he pretty much controls my emotions. Weather or not my night goes well depends on weather or not he calls, and I begin to want to hang out every couple of days because I miss him.
For a while we were both on the same page. Then theres Saturday....
He comes over, plays cards, and leaves. In my mind If someone is talking to you on a daily (ish) basis, and you stayed at his house 3 nights ago, then its more then a friendship. I wanted to see what was going on.... so I called after he left... The conversation went pretty much as follows.....
Me: Whats going on? Im really frustrated and confused, and I don't know what you want.
Him: What are you trying to say?
Me: You tell me you care about me, and that you miss me and still like me and whatever, and then just now when you come over you act like you just wanna be friends.
Him: (exact quote) "Kim, I told you that like a month ago."
WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT! I literally just stayed at his house like 3 nights ago and your still calling or txting me pretty much everyday! So just because its been a month, and youve been acting the same damn way the whole time, until tonight im just supossed to know that you arn't intereated anymore?!?!?!?!!?!?!?
Me: You cant just change your feelings and not tell me. I dont know whats going on through your head, and if you tell me you care about me, then change your mind you need to tell me....... So what are you saying? that you once again dont have any feelings for me and want to be just friends.
Him: yea
Me: I told you not to do this when you frist said that you cared, and you just did. I was over it, and now Ive developed feelings for you and youve just hurt me again. If all you want is just friends then Im going to need like 3 weeks without you calling or tlaking to me so i can get over this.
Him: okay.
And that was it. I havent heard from him since Saturday. I cannot beleive he is such an ass. Not one word of comfert throughout the whole conversation. It was like he was trying to hurt my feelings. My whole view of him has changed. He's not a nice guy at all. Hes a complete asshole, and it makes me sick to my stomach to think that I could care for someone like him. Once again he just decided to play games and hurt me, and now doesnt even care. The 3 week thing isn't just so I could get over him, It was also my way of just erasing him from my life all together. I really dont want to even be friends with someone who could be so hurtful.
But other then that we had an amazing house a roo that night. We hung out with the neighbors and some other people. I was up until 4am, then after I went to bed I guess I missed the spin the bottle game everyone else played until 6am. After everything that happend I had a really good night, and I think its going to be a lot easier to move on this time cause I dont have this nice guy image in my head anymore, which is a good thing.
Thats all :)
So theres this boy. He sees me at the bar a while ago and says "do you still like me? cause I still like you." What do I say in return.... "please dont tell me this unless you mean it, its not a game to me and it hurts when you change your mind." but he continues, and says he still cares about me and blah blah blah, how he cant control how hes going to feel in the future, but he does still like me and whatever else bullshit he can come up with. Well I tell him I dont want a boyfriend but that I do still care about him. He starts calling every day, I stay at his house about once a week. We get along, and soon i am once again in that place where he pretty much controls my emotions. Weather or not my night goes well depends on weather or not he calls, and I begin to want to hang out every couple of days because I miss him.
For a while we were both on the same page. Then theres Saturday....
He comes over, plays cards, and leaves. In my mind If someone is talking to you on a daily (ish) basis, and you stayed at his house 3 nights ago, then its more then a friendship. I wanted to see what was going on.... so I called after he left... The conversation went pretty much as follows.....
Me: Whats going on? Im really frustrated and confused, and I don't know what you want.
Him: What are you trying to say?
Me: You tell me you care about me, and that you miss me and still like me and whatever, and then just now when you come over you act like you just wanna be friends.
Him: (exact quote) "Kim, I told you that like a month ago."
WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT! I literally just stayed at his house like 3 nights ago and your still calling or txting me pretty much everyday! So just because its been a month, and youve been acting the same damn way the whole time, until tonight im just supossed to know that you arn't intereated anymore?!?!?!?!!?!?!?
Me: You cant just change your feelings and not tell me. I dont know whats going on through your head, and if you tell me you care about me, then change your mind you need to tell me....... So what are you saying? that you once again dont have any feelings for me and want to be just friends.
Him: yea
Me: I told you not to do this when you frist said that you cared, and you just did. I was over it, and now Ive developed feelings for you and youve just hurt me again. If all you want is just friends then Im going to need like 3 weeks without you calling or tlaking to me so i can get over this.
Him: okay.
And that was it. I havent heard from him since Saturday. I cannot beleive he is such an ass. Not one word of comfert throughout the whole conversation. It was like he was trying to hurt my feelings. My whole view of him has changed. He's not a nice guy at all. Hes a complete asshole, and it makes me sick to my stomach to think that I could care for someone like him. Once again he just decided to play games and hurt me, and now doesnt even care. The 3 week thing isn't just so I could get over him, It was also my way of just erasing him from my life all together. I really dont want to even be friends with someone who could be so hurtful.
But other then that we had an amazing house a roo that night. We hung out with the neighbors and some other people. I was up until 4am, then after I went to bed I guess I missed the spin the bottle game everyone else played until 6am. After everything that happend I had a really good night, and I think its going to be a lot easier to move on this time cause I dont have this nice guy image in my head anymore, which is a good thing.
Thats all :)