I am damaged....
So.. Shame on me i seem to be in the habit of writing lil things to MYself, and not postin on LJ.
Im not sure whos still with me here. my Bad.
Anyway, in states of inebriaton and otherwise, ill jot down these kinda idiotic things... just emptying my head.. and HERE.. for your perusal, is one of these i had done.
and then youll see why sometimes my own self editoral keeps this crap from goin public.
best to remain silent and be thought a fool, then open it, and remove all doubt.
Take any night and step outside…. Look up. This is a moment that means nothing.. until you realize that there are no moments that mean nothing. This comes when you gain the knowledge that life happened to most people while they are waiting for something better to come along. When you look up on that cloudless night, just realize that you stare into infinty. I find comfort with that thought. When you understand, and know that your looking into infinity right in front of you you are looking off into an expanse that covers FOREVER. A concept that we cant even rationally interpret. Turn your head to the south…. The north… east.. west… each way you look goes on to infinity. Right in front of your eyes..
. Its an experience that can make you feel very small if you let it.. It can make you sad. Look thru the vast expanse of stars.. millions of stars, and we cant begin to imagine how many of these have planets. Realizing that only human arrogance could possibly rationale that only this one small insignificant speck in the universe could contain life. Billions… upon billions of these places exist.. That star there… right there .. The fifth planet around that star there is a world that lives entirely under sea. A blue pearl of a world ,and beneath the deepest calm blue resides a kingdom of beings made up of biolumanesance brilliant shades of blue and green, pinks and oranges, an entire city at the bottom of the ocean, shining brighter than any sun, with the force of their own life force.
And over there, that brilliant orange star there. Around the third planet of that system there resides a green world surrounded by a series of Saturn-like rings resides a planet where Mother Nature simply kept going forward unimpeded by any civilization. And there grew a living breathing planet, and ecosystem of trees that at any given point can choose to grow limbs and seek out new locations, A place where A living breathing forest, stops only to the deep marshes where species exist to such number that any scientific attempt to count would be doomed to fail as countless new species arrive daily.
And over there, that greenish star… residing on the 4th planet, a local god decides to begin a world based in the hiveset mentality… adopting the strategy of the bee… simply to see the outcome of such an ordeal.
And when I sit on my porch, and stare upwards at that center star on Orions Belt, The one that I used to remember, because it was on science test in Junior High. I think something about it being in Men In Black had made you remember a lot longer than usual.
But right then, right there, on that planet, someone who could look a lil like me… but a nice shade of blue, is staring up at a star that forms the space banana in the hand of Quazarr the Space Monkey Constellation that always tells Quazarrion Merchant Marines to go in the direction of “OOOgth” which translates to the word “South” in the English language. I just really believe that any constellation that happened to drag old Sol into a constellation has monkey overtones. I don’t know why, I have no proof, but some things you take on faith.
And Right there, Boountu, the person who sells you fresh moogawump down at the market, stares upwards at our own sun… not realizing that down there,, on the third rock from the sun, your staring directly back at him, wondering, just what it is that’s out there. And Deep in his 4th heart, Boountu feels deep regret that his family will never know about anything out there, just as I, will never see any of the wonders that surround me in numbers exceeding infinity.
Boountu feels a deep emptiness, as I, knowing his wife Blabumtu will never see the million mile waterfall on that planet over there. Nor his family. Little Booguntu… dear Bleebubmtu. And Steve. Lets not forget about ol Steve.
My darling dearest, sneer to your hearts content… this is the universe we live in. Understand that with the knowledge of infinity comes the realization of infnite probability. If you have thought it, it exists, somewhere out there in the darkest folds of the universe. Every happy thought you hold dear to has taken root somewhere in the cosmos. Every nightmare that sits inside those hidden corners of your mind in place you don’t like to go, and don’t like to talk about… A civilization of pure madness and evil.. evil beyond anything a mere human could imagine. Possible.
I spend many nights looking up at Orion… for some reason, I pick out Orion everywhere I go. Perhaps its just those stars, brightest to me. Easier to pick out. Where I am country, the stars just bright enough to distinguish themselves from the millions of others, with a sad realization that those days of looking up into that brilliant dark nights in the middle of nowhere become fewer. So I gratefully acknowledge Orion for remaining brilliant next to the lights of the intruding city.
Maybe that it always was in the same place, above me, growing up, Always there, never staying too long… the clouds gave you both a chance to do whatever you wanted of the other. Universal. In every sense of the term.
Never alone. Its always there. So you hang outside ona cold December night.. hanging out with Orion and ol BooUntu. He talks of his kids Booguntu just got into Blixblat State… lil worried bout Steve tho.. he married a Gnutiun and yaknow.. in this day and age still mixed marriages are still a bit of dodgy proposition, lets get real.
And to this, many nights, I kept to myself. Sometimes with others.. special others. Some would get me, many failed. I don’t have to mourn what I wont see because out there somewhere, someone travels at the speed of thought. Possible.
Im not sure whos still with me here. my Bad.
Anyway, in states of inebriaton and otherwise, ill jot down these kinda idiotic things... just emptying my head.. and HERE.. for your perusal, is one of these i had done.
and then youll see why sometimes my own self editoral keeps this crap from goin public.
best to remain silent and be thought a fool, then open it, and remove all doubt.
Take any night and step outside…. Look up. This is a moment that means nothing.. until you realize that there are no moments that mean nothing. This comes when you gain the knowledge that life happened to most people while they are waiting for something better to come along. When you look up on that cloudless night, just realize that you stare into infinty. I find comfort with that thought. When you understand, and know that your looking into infinity right in front of you you are looking off into an expanse that covers FOREVER. A concept that we cant even rationally interpret. Turn your head to the south…. The north… east.. west… each way you look goes on to infinity. Right in front of your eyes..
. Its an experience that can make you feel very small if you let it.. It can make you sad. Look thru the vast expanse of stars.. millions of stars, and we cant begin to imagine how many of these have planets. Realizing that only human arrogance could possibly rationale that only this one small insignificant speck in the universe could contain life. Billions… upon billions of these places exist.. That star there… right there .. The fifth planet around that star there is a world that lives entirely under sea. A blue pearl of a world ,and beneath the deepest calm blue resides a kingdom of beings made up of biolumanesance brilliant shades of blue and green, pinks and oranges, an entire city at the bottom of the ocean, shining brighter than any sun, with the force of their own life force.
And over there, that brilliant orange star there. Around the third planet of that system there resides a green world surrounded by a series of Saturn-like rings resides a planet where Mother Nature simply kept going forward unimpeded by any civilization. And there grew a living breathing planet, and ecosystem of trees that at any given point can choose to grow limbs and seek out new locations, A place where A living breathing forest, stops only to the deep marshes where species exist to such number that any scientific attempt to count would be doomed to fail as countless new species arrive daily.
And over there, that greenish star… residing on the 4th planet, a local god decides to begin a world based in the hiveset mentality… adopting the strategy of the bee… simply to see the outcome of such an ordeal.
And when I sit on my porch, and stare upwards at that center star on Orions Belt, The one that I used to remember, because it was on science test in Junior High. I think something about it being in Men In Black had made you remember a lot longer than usual.
But right then, right there, on that planet, someone who could look a lil like me… but a nice shade of blue, is staring up at a star that forms the space banana in the hand of Quazarr the Space Monkey Constellation that always tells Quazarrion Merchant Marines to go in the direction of “OOOgth” which translates to the word “South” in the English language. I just really believe that any constellation that happened to drag old Sol into a constellation has monkey overtones. I don’t know why, I have no proof, but some things you take on faith.
And Right there, Boountu, the person who sells you fresh moogawump down at the market, stares upwards at our own sun… not realizing that down there,, on the third rock from the sun, your staring directly back at him, wondering, just what it is that’s out there. And Deep in his 4th heart, Boountu feels deep regret that his family will never know about anything out there, just as I, will never see any of the wonders that surround me in numbers exceeding infinity.
Boountu feels a deep emptiness, as I, knowing his wife Blabumtu will never see the million mile waterfall on that planet over there. Nor his family. Little Booguntu… dear Bleebubmtu. And Steve. Lets not forget about ol Steve.
My darling dearest, sneer to your hearts content… this is the universe we live in. Understand that with the knowledge of infinity comes the realization of infnite probability. If you have thought it, it exists, somewhere out there in the darkest folds of the universe. Every happy thought you hold dear to has taken root somewhere in the cosmos. Every nightmare that sits inside those hidden corners of your mind in place you don’t like to go, and don’t like to talk about… A civilization of pure madness and evil.. evil beyond anything a mere human could imagine. Possible.
I spend many nights looking up at Orion… for some reason, I pick out Orion everywhere I go. Perhaps its just those stars, brightest to me. Easier to pick out. Where I am country, the stars just bright enough to distinguish themselves from the millions of others, with a sad realization that those days of looking up into that brilliant dark nights in the middle of nowhere become fewer. So I gratefully acknowledge Orion for remaining brilliant next to the lights of the intruding city.
Maybe that it always was in the same place, above me, growing up, Always there, never staying too long… the clouds gave you both a chance to do whatever you wanted of the other. Universal. In every sense of the term.
Never alone. Its always there. So you hang outside ona cold December night.. hanging out with Orion and ol BooUntu. He talks of his kids Booguntu just got into Blixblat State… lil worried bout Steve tho.. he married a Gnutiun and yaknow.. in this day and age still mixed marriages are still a bit of dodgy proposition, lets get real.
And to this, many nights, I kept to myself. Sometimes with others.. special others. Some would get me, many failed. I don’t have to mourn what I wont see because out there somewhere, someone travels at the speed of thought. Possible.