thinking about virtuosity, that point of indeterminacy where the line between effort and effortlessness breaks down. what is shared and what is one's own. precocious children and how effort itself comes hard to them (us). help is always necessary and impossible. you have to want to rule the world before you can serve it. neuroses and how the ego ( Read more... )

so i am going to a dance party tonight! with the exception of my senior prom (at which i just didn't give a damn) i haven't danced in public since i think 6th grade. it was a seriously classic awkward-girl-coming-of-age moment, at a school dance, when, after i had been dancing in a (in retrospect) remarkably uninhibited way for a 12-year-old 6th ( Read more... )

i keep opening this window to post my usual "i had a day la la la" stuff and i can't think of anything to say ( Read more... )

omigod omigod omigod I GOT THE JOB ( Read more... )

thank you, numb3rs, for not doing what i was so, so afraid you were going to do.

( sp0il3rz, yo )

1. The dynamic/s of BDSM, particularly the (possibility of the) phenomenon of "topping from the bottom," problematize/s transitivity in interpersonal relations, in part because of the peculiar structures of self-reference involved ( Read more... )

no more, no less.

1. instrumentalizing language ("rhetoric") collapses into relations of power all of the potentialities of language to create/support/found* and make meaningful (and meaningfully different) relations upon something (anything) other than power ( Read more... )

i got into st. john's! just got my letter today!

HOLY CRAP I AM SO HAPPY

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YATTA!!!!!!!!!!

so i finally got the letter from st. john's telling me they got dr. edwards' letter of recommendation. which means they have everything. which means my application is complete. which means it can be sent to the admissions committee for review.

which means i should get their decision in about two weeks.

yipe!

i think it's easy to be dismissive of the strike, as i (like many) doubt whether it will make any lasting impact on SUP. it seems to me some of the people involved are getting a bit too "democracy in action" about it, as if ad-free webspace were some sort of civil right. but i do get where these people are coming from ( Read more... )