camille is hurting so bad
im sick. soo incredibly weirdly sick. i hurt always. something is wrong with my intestines or something...
i got back from chile. felt woozy and tummy ache. i blamed the intense travelling and figured it would go away within a day, two at most.
well, i got back from chile on wednesday. its monday night, and i've gotten worse. headaches, tum aches, light headedness, worse tum aches... actually lets call that a pain. a constant pain in my abdomen that wont go away.
i've had to miss work, i can't go out. im bed-ridden. its terrible... i went to ben harper yesterday. and i realise that that makes it sound like im not so sick and the pain isn't so bad... i mean, if i could go to a concert i must be alright right?... well it was hell... really beautiful peaceful lovely music filled pain hell! i sooo should have stayed home, but i couldn't have handled it if i didn't go. oh no. so i went and i lied down on a blanket in the back and didn't move for the whole concert. and walking back to the car i had to stop and get them to pick me up cause i couldn't make it...
SO! the question is, what the fuck is wrong with me? well, i went to a doctor, who sent me to take tests... lab tests and stuff. i guess they want to make sure i don't have similar problems like those of my dad... i don't know. i'll find out friday the results. until then, they gave me pain pills (specific abdomen ones, cause T3s were doing nothing), which aren't working that well. but they are making me sleepy. which is good, cause theres not much else i can do.
anyways. im in pain, and i don't know why. im annoyed cause i can't work. and i can't play. weed seemed to help at the concert, but i can't go out really and i can't smoke here. i so want to know whats wrong with me. sooo badly want to know.
i got back from chile. felt woozy and tummy ache. i blamed the intense travelling and figured it would go away within a day, two at most.
well, i got back from chile on wednesday. its monday night, and i've gotten worse. headaches, tum aches, light headedness, worse tum aches... actually lets call that a pain. a constant pain in my abdomen that wont go away.
i've had to miss work, i can't go out. im bed-ridden. its terrible... i went to ben harper yesterday. and i realise that that makes it sound like im not so sick and the pain isn't so bad... i mean, if i could go to a concert i must be alright right?... well it was hell... really beautiful peaceful lovely music filled pain hell! i sooo should have stayed home, but i couldn't have handled it if i didn't go. oh no. so i went and i lied down on a blanket in the back and didn't move for the whole concert. and walking back to the car i had to stop and get them to pick me up cause i couldn't make it...
SO! the question is, what the fuck is wrong with me? well, i went to a doctor, who sent me to take tests... lab tests and stuff. i guess they want to make sure i don't have similar problems like those of my dad... i don't know. i'll find out friday the results. until then, they gave me pain pills (specific abdomen ones, cause T3s were doing nothing), which aren't working that well. but they are making me sleepy. which is good, cause theres not much else i can do.
anyways. im in pain, and i don't know why. im annoyed cause i can't work. and i can't play. weed seemed to help at the concert, but i can't go out really and i can't smoke here. i so want to know whats wrong with me. sooo badly want to know.