so...
A year comes.. and goes...
Shall I be cliche?... Yes.
2005 was a year of hell for me..
2006 was a year of rebirth... free from the hell that tortured me... and free from those things and people that had held me back... unknowingly...
In contrast to a year ago... I'm no longer alone... Though in some ways I was never alone.. but now... I have more friends then I know what to do with... Many good and loyal friends... I've strengthened the old friendships... and forged new ones..etc..etc...
I've had a girlfriend, Cheryl.. we dated for a time.. I treated her well, but in the end, she was honestly not mature enough for me... ironic I suppose.. cause she was a good deal older then I was....
I've chased women.. had some fun... had some frustration.. still haven't gained my...faith in women back yet... Wonder if I ever can?
I got a job... doesn't pay well.. but I'm well respected and liked there... And Appreciated by management. I do good work, and it pays to have pride in your work.
My living situation has changed in that I no longer live alone... now I have a roommate.. and at spring end... 2 more when we move into a house... Though details are still being worked out..
I've read the entire Dune series...though I'm still finishing the last book. Also read a number of other books.. like Count of Monty Cristo..
I'm now a double major... Comp Sci and Psych.
Outside of just friends.. my social network is vastly larger.. I have a mafia of people now... Large amounts of contacts and associates. Made friends with some interesting people... like Alex.. their... weird ex-model chick... or... Mary.. the Sandwich girl... Actually.. I'm noting a lack of males in the people I'm befriending... funny that.
My relationship with my family is stronger then it used to be... and now I have a pet.. Shamandalie..
I saw some good concerts... and was the bestman in a wedding of my bestfriend...
Got my car stolen.. and recovered.. lost my bike to the process.. I will miss Charlene...
Forgave my ex for cheating on me.. and all that... Though from rumors I have heard.. I suspect she's convinced herself that she didn't really do anything wrong... but... she will believe what she needs to... to be happy... it was always her way... And she's not my problem now... Though I do still miss her... she made her choice...She knew what it would cost... Assuming she even cares anymore... But that's life...
Now I keep myself extremely busy with a social life... and work... and reading... and school.. firstly..
I bought a new computer for myself.. a beautiful machine... power and speed in one sexy bundle...
Dating has been some fun... I've learned a lot about the nature of women.. and of people... and had some fun along the way... hehe
Mentally.. I'm a lot better then I was... when school ended last year.. I was a wreck... I had the last blows needed to complete my mental collapse and retreated back home... Nick helped put me back together... at least.. put me on the course I needed to be on to put myself back together... to rebuild myself.. I did this by allowing myself to completely fall apart... and with nothing left but a mess of psychosis and rage...I reverted back to a previous version of me... the place where I was last myself... I reverted to who I was back in late highschool... I redonned the attire and demeanor of who I once was... and allowed myself to evolve again from that point.. though I could not reaquire my idealism, now lost... I was able to rediscover the person I had lost when I came to college... Though I'm not done changing... I will never again allow myself to stagnate as I once did... to lose my identity to another... let them try use my identity as their own...
A lot has changed in the last year... and there are more changes to come... Nothing lasts forever.. and everything...changes...
Lessons from 2006:
1. Life ain't no fairytale.
2. No Thing lasts forever.
Shall I be cliche?... Yes.
2005 was a year of hell for me..
2006 was a year of rebirth... free from the hell that tortured me... and free from those things and people that had held me back... unknowingly...
In contrast to a year ago... I'm no longer alone... Though in some ways I was never alone.. but now... I have more friends then I know what to do with... Many good and loyal friends... I've strengthened the old friendships... and forged new ones..etc..etc...
I've had a girlfriend, Cheryl.. we dated for a time.. I treated her well, but in the end, she was honestly not mature enough for me... ironic I suppose.. cause she was a good deal older then I was....
I've chased women.. had some fun... had some frustration.. still haven't gained my...faith in women back yet... Wonder if I ever can?
I got a job... doesn't pay well.. but I'm well respected and liked there... And Appreciated by management. I do good work, and it pays to have pride in your work.
My living situation has changed in that I no longer live alone... now I have a roommate.. and at spring end... 2 more when we move into a house... Though details are still being worked out..
I've read the entire Dune series...though I'm still finishing the last book. Also read a number of other books.. like Count of Monty Cristo..
I'm now a double major... Comp Sci and Psych.
Outside of just friends.. my social network is vastly larger.. I have a mafia of people now... Large amounts of contacts and associates. Made friends with some interesting people... like Alex.. their... weird ex-model chick... or... Mary.. the Sandwich girl... Actually.. I'm noting a lack of males in the people I'm befriending... funny that.
My relationship with my family is stronger then it used to be... and now I have a pet.. Shamandalie..
I saw some good concerts... and was the bestman in a wedding of my bestfriend...
Got my car stolen.. and recovered.. lost my bike to the process.. I will miss Charlene...
Forgave my ex for cheating on me.. and all that... Though from rumors I have heard.. I suspect she's convinced herself that she didn't really do anything wrong... but... she will believe what she needs to... to be happy... it was always her way... And she's not my problem now... Though I do still miss her... she made her choice...She knew what it would cost... Assuming she even cares anymore... But that's life...
Now I keep myself extremely busy with a social life... and work... and reading... and school.. firstly..
I bought a new computer for myself.. a beautiful machine... power and speed in one sexy bundle...
Dating has been some fun... I've learned a lot about the nature of women.. and of people... and had some fun along the way... hehe
Mentally.. I'm a lot better then I was... when school ended last year.. I was a wreck... I had the last blows needed to complete my mental collapse and retreated back home... Nick helped put me back together... at least.. put me on the course I needed to be on to put myself back together... to rebuild myself.. I did this by allowing myself to completely fall apart... and with nothing left but a mess of psychosis and rage...I reverted back to a previous version of me... the place where I was last myself... I reverted to who I was back in late highschool... I redonned the attire and demeanor of who I once was... and allowed myself to evolve again from that point.. though I could not reaquire my idealism, now lost... I was able to rediscover the person I had lost when I came to college... Though I'm not done changing... I will never again allow myself to stagnate as I once did... to lose my identity to another... let them try use my identity as their own...
A lot has changed in the last year... and there are more changes to come... Nothing lasts forever.. and everything...changes...
Lessons from 2006:
1. Life ain't no fairytale.
2. No Thing lasts forever.